The sun rising

2012-01-13T12:01:00.001+08:00

It been quite sometimes since I last update my blog.Can see that I am getting more and more lazy to update as i realise everyone surrounded me are not using blogger anymore.Guess i am the only one using it nw.Becos,inside tis blogger,there is so many memories inside,it's like my life's journal,tinking of it,I am afraid if someday blogger are upgrading or etc.,then all the posting I posted when I am still a young 13 yrs old gal till nw,i am already moving forward 21 will be gone.Time flies.Things change,life's change,everyone's around change,including myself.Life's a tortured.I cannot accept wat fate is bringing to us.It's...bad.Well...recently chatting with one guy in co., really dunno why can I continue the chat and tinking if we are possible,it's kinda ridiculous.I hate it when I can't control myself to tink of ridiculous thing.My heart,are still with him.The one I waited for so long.People's around me get to noe abt it only tink that I am stupid.Fucking stupid.Bt hav u ever go through it?Can u do until lik wat I am doing?Like/Lov someone for 10+ yrs?Tat's fucking long.Bt,I am waiting for empty shell.I thought this road can lead me out of the darkness,so I followed,until now..I still don't find a way out.And so,I am trapped inside,it would takes me a long way to walk out.Still the same,it has been one yr working in this co.,but,it still didn't get any better.Tired,very tired..physically..mentally...and oh my gosh,i am gaining weight -.-.

2011-11-30T23:08:00.004+08:00

Seriously,i hav nv wanna leave this co. so much lik today until i posted it in my fb.Early in the morning received this kind of "bad news",who can still work with tat fake smiley face uh?Was being told by my boss that OTHER department wanna seperate me and my colleague,one of us may be switched to another department,then i was lik,WTF!?Are you kidding me off?Why are this decision being made?Then,all the way i was nt giving a gd face to my boss,though i noe,he hav his difficulty too,shldn't put all the blame on him,bt...i juz can't show a smiley face.Hw disappointed i am with this co.,again and again.You dun wan to giv us one more system clerk to help us,nvm.U keep on adding loads on us when u noe we are already overloaded,nvm.And nw u fucking brainless wanna take one of us off when 2 persons is already nt enough!Are u trying to make all ur staff's leave then u are happy?U are fucking pushing all u staff's to the corner already.Enough is enough.I tink the serious problem lies with u,u shld be the one changing and NT US!We changed WH staff,we changed WH manager,we changed working method,bt..prob still around,so i guess...maybe changing u would be a better try for tis mess to get a cleared up.U are always blocking the road,it's time to clear u up so we can crossover and make a better change.U dun even noe hw to lead the team,u dun stand up for ur staff's,u let other's control ur staff's,control ur staff's jobscope,and u let them add more loads to ur department and u dare nt stand up,stand firm and say "NO",what kind of management are u,and wat do u still deserve for ur staff's to respect u?When can everything stable down?When can everything be settled?And when can dun everything oso WH,WH.Gd one dun hav WH,bad one all WH.Kns :/.

2011-11-16T23:29:00.000+08:00

How?Anybody can tell me wat happened to me?Wat's gg on?After tat chalet,or after noeing the things happened on sun,there seems to grow a stone on my chest,it's torturing me,i wanna cry,bt i can't,i wanna shout,bt i can't,i wanna struggle,bt i can't.I talked to someone,bt it's useless.I can't laugh,i find it hard to smile,i hav no mood to work,if tis gonna carry on,many ppls will feel disappointed on me.Cos i am no longer tat hardworking me.Bt nt i wan it to be tis way,is i really dunno wat's gg on to me,who can cure tis pain in me nw?It could be i am giving stress to myself,bt..i really try nt to tink,the more i control,the more worst i feel.Can i temp lost my memory?Can i rest my mind for awhile?I feel suffocated.I turn around,i look around,there is really nobody who can understand me even without me saying anything.In life,hw careful can a person be.When u hav totally no idea who is the one tat will bring harm to u,hw are u gg to prevent?I hav nv wanted to say tis bt seriously,FML.Tis life,is tiring,is bored,is torturing.I noe and i am sure there is ppls who are leading the life tat is 10 times worst than mine,bt so?I am leading one worst life too,i am no diff frm them,juz tat i may be abit luckier than them bt still,my life is still suck after all.Guardian angel,where are u?

2011-10-16T20:48:00.000+08:00

Uhhhh...i am sick.Sore throat,flu,headache,and..tired.Life's full of obstacles.LOL.Actually,i dunno wat to blog abt,bt juz feel lik to post something.Talk abt my job bah,hm...dunno wat am i busy abt,bt juz feeling so busy everyday,and when somebody is trying to help and ask wat help we need,we actually tink tat we can manage,so why are we always feeling so busy?And we are really busy,is lik 24 hrs a day is nt enough.Hav been working frm mon-sat these 4 mths,and it seems to be a habit nw.I am really afraid of changes,bt...without changes,things wun improve.Well..are we getting better nw?Are we really?I am afraid when they wanna hand sumthing over to me and wan me to handle,then i will start to tink,shld i and why muz i?See uh..if ppl ask u to do sumthing,u juz do and wun argue,ppl will take advantage of u,it will seems lik u are stupid and easy to be use by others.Bt,if ppl ask you to do sumthing,u will argue,u will nt let them take advantages of u,it dun seems very gd oso.So sometimes,i really dunno wat to do and shld put myself in wat kind of position..follow my heart?Yea...but,my heart didn't told me wat to do.Wah...i realise i dun understand myself,and i dunno myself at all.Wat kind of person am i?Am i a gd or bad person?Or thr is actually no gd or bad,to tis portion of ppl,i may be gd,to tat portion of ppl,i may be bad.Rmb tat time i blog abt my boss may wan to send me oversea for training,until nw..thr is still no news of it,i guess it has been called off,as tat period of time,WH is in a mess,so shld be over lerHx bah,walau eh...then why muz he tell me -.-,make me feel excited awhile..LOL -.-. I hav a very confusing heart and mind nw,i keep on tinking of many things,many many things,and i hav a very selfish thought,i wan sumthing happen to me,then let me coma for a period of time,after i waked up,i hope all the useless memory can be deleted.I only wan to rmb my family and things tat are useful.So..i dun hav to be so tired.And...the first memory i would wan to make sure it will be deleted,is u...the one who occupied my heart,my mind for almost 10 yrs.It's enough.I dunno why i juz can't get rid of u,i juz can't.I muz hav owe u something in my previous life,i muz hav.If nt,why so many ppls in the world,bt juz u..so hard to let go.

2011-09-05T23:12:00.001+08:00

After 3 days of Superstar Virgo Cruise,and here i am back to normal life again.Today as usual,one whole stack of bin to bin transfer tag needs to be done and all chapalang work.-.- My new boss,suddenly tell me he has sumthing to tell me,ask me lata giv him some time,then i was lik dunno wat's gg on,and so,i ans him,no..i dun wan giv him time.And,he told me,dun wan lo..he dun wan work liao.Then i was lik,stunt awhile,then..i asked him,why?And he smile smile and say he's tired.Well,at tat moment,seriously,i am feeling afraid,i afraid nobody wans to lead the war,and i hav to ended up gg alone,i dun lik tat feeling.I admit at the first sight i saw tis boss,i dislik him,cos i prefer old boss.But yet after some times of working tgt,so and so..get to noe him more,and realise actually nt tat bad,juz can't be compare to old boss.HAHAHA.Then when i went up office to discuss something wif him,he look so stress up,i dunno why he wan to work so hard,i mean..he tink and tink bt nth came out instead of headache,so why won't he hav a gd rest and get battery fully charged and prepare for the war.Well...wat i hav to say,i said to him,to stay or to leave is up to him to decide,cos even me,oso every mins will hav the kind of "wanna quit" feeling,and as a boss of mine,why won't he.LOL.Tis co. is seriously suck lik hell.On the day i leave,i can't imagine hw elated would i be.But,will i found a better job when i leave tis co.?

2011-08-28T22:37:00.000+08:00

如果说，你发现你曾经等待过的那个人，已经不再是以前你所喜欢的那个他，你所等待过的他，跟现在是判若两人，你会怎样呢？可是你始终却还是放不下曾经喜欢过的那个他。我觉得好可怕，我喜欢的那个他已经消失不见，我却还是放不下，这样的我，要如何在寻找下一个恋人呢？我，不知道为什么到现在都还没谈过恋爱。是我的问题吗？很多人都说我太佻，可是，我没挑过。对于爱情，不是应该是感觉对了，缘分来了，才会有的吗？可是，我身边的人，每一次都把它说成好像养猫养狗一样，在路边看到，就随便挑一个。就连养猫养狗，我想都要看缘分吧。现在的我，身边全都只是朋友。或许是还没遇到对的，或许是缘分还没到。虽然自己有时候也是会去想，可是，想了也没用，还是船到桥头自然直吧。

Today went to rebond my hair,and hav a haircut,i change my hairstyle,my fringe become short.I am so worried,dunno wat's the first impression my new hairstyle givs other's.Hope it wun be too bad.Last day of lunar 7th mth.Dad,did u come back within this one mth?I can't saw u,neither u let me dream of u.I hope u wun be too sad,as we are tinking of u everyday.We may be doing other's stuff,bt we did nt forget u,we juz keep u well somewhr in our heart,until we hav time,we bring u out again.U are noble dad ever.We love u. <3

2011-07-21T23:02:00.000+08:00

Here i hav happy things to share,as well as unhappy things.Let's talk abt unhappy things first.Today mum went to check for her bottom,as nurse called and say her bottom had some infection or wat,then today take out abit of fresh frm thr and wait for the report.I am afraid and worried when i heard sis told me hw bad the result can be.It's lik i can't imagine hw would tis family turn to if tis become the fact,pls...buddha,taoist,heaven and whosoever which is able to get rid of the "bad luck",pls...come to my family and help us.Bring some "fortune" to us.I would appreciate it alot alot!2nd,stock count result for my WH,bad.Onli words to describe is it's "shit".Seriously a mess,firsly..we did nt do any preparation before the count,secondly..ppl who noes abt the count is nt thr to lead,left wif all headless flies,third..the count was inaccurate lik dunno wat.Alrite,happy things nw,most happy things is my gosh!!!!Baobei xixi came :D.HAHA,still as cute larHx,oh my gosh.Second,he called to care and concern =P.And today,i met one weird thing and dunno it's lucky or ridiculous,lol...i dismiss frm work at 7pm plus when it's obviously no more co. bus,so i called for a cab,bt..i waited for lik 10 mins or even 15 mins,still no shadow of the cab,then tis bus was lik driving infront of me and u-turn back,the uncle inside the bus ask me whr am i gg,i tell him i wanna go jp,then he ask me wan he drive me thr anot,i was lik...well,seems lik it's the onli choice,mum they all are waiting for me at jp wif a empty stomach,so...i went up and didn't consider much,the driver of the bus which is the uncle ask me,whr u stay,whr u wanna go..i drive u to the destination larHx,when i say JP will do,then i start to feel myself abit idiot,why did i anyhw went up to a vehicle which i dunno tat driver,bt luckily he drive me to jp and i was lik,phew...and feel thankful to him,wanna giv him money as appreciation bt he dun wanna accept.And he say if i wan giv him money he dun drive me next time when he saw me,lol..so i keep back the money and told him,next time if he gonna drive me must accept.LOL...seriously i tink i am mad,really lucky tat he did nt drive me to somewhr ulu ulu,if nt i oso lik gg.com liao xD.

2011-07-18T20:08:00.001+08:00

Ridiculous missing u,fri,sat,sun,mon,tues..and nt onli,i guess...at the rest of the day in co.,chances seeing u are getting lesser and lesser.Haix...worst is,i am still nt very used to the life in co. without u,tat's why..it makes me more and more frustrated in the co.,getting less and less patience wif those worker in co..lost my temper to one of the guy i been tolerating.Such an irritating fellow yet didn't realise hw irritating he is and still act lik he is very rite.-.- Today morning was such a funny.New WH manager call and ask me to ask someone bring up a pc of paper he juz print out using WH printer,then i thought he print 2 pc,so i ask the gal to bring 2 pc to him without looking wat's tat paper.Awhile lata,he call and ask me,"Hey kris,why u send resignation letter to me?"I went up to check,LOL..it was other's ppl resignation letter,bt so coincidence tat the person name has "kris" on it,i was laughing lik wat.And yea,today is the last day of probation period..haix,will it be a hard life for me?While..after today,if i wanna quit,muz giv 1 MTH notice in advance lerHx,no more 1 wk,lik so wtf :/.Chiam...bad omen,boss asking the gal who's helping me to learn sumthing else,mean...i am still back to old state?I guess so,hope..hope it wun be a hard life for me.Enough of "surprise".

2011-07-10T18:24:00.001+08:00

Ytd,had a chat wif tis new WH manager,before i had tis chat wif him,i feel tat he's an ass,bt after tat chat,at least i feel his attitude for tis WH.And quite impressed.Bt,saying is always louder than doing,so...i oso reply him,i will see.HAHA!!Dunno whr i find the guts to reply him =x.LOL..i can't imagine i actually chat wif him for almost 1 hr.Lik so funny,i dun chat wif current manager for tis long.At the other side,i am oso quite worried,dunno hw will he turn the WH into.Frm the chat,i understand he is someone who wan to create impossible to possible,and to do so..we,his subordinate,are the one's who will be suffering xD.Omg..5 days nv saw my current manager..LOL.Haix...the more i hate changes,the more changes come to me.See,nw manager change again,workload for sure will be adding again.And,frm the conversation,i am sure tis new WH manager gt IQ bt no EQ :/.So,i will forget abt the life wif current manager around.Start to adapt to wat new WH manager is gg to do.LOL!

2011-07-01T19:41:00.001+08:00

Acting to be lik i am so fine.Fine?No..i am nt.I told myself hw i shld be,bt..telling myself is so easy,trying to be one is so hard.Looking around,nth changes,bt...we are changing.Thr's no way turning back.My dad,my friendship,my life,my job,my fun,my sch life,my first crush...everything,it has been yrs.For so long,i hav last seen my dad,for so long,i hav last feel the sisters-ship,for so long,since i last enjoy the job tat i am happy working,for so long,since i had my last fun,for so long,since i last enter a sch,greet a teacher,singing national song,saying pledge,for so long,since i last saw u.Bt yea..all these is no longer inside my daily life routine.It's gone.

2011-06-23T23:02:00.000+08:00

Are you nt caring us anymore?Washing ur hands off us juz lik tat?Cos you are moving back to ur old place so you dun hav to giv a damn abt us anymore?So wat's tat 3 mths mean to u?Tat 3 mths,you hav been repeating "we hav done well",so is tat juz a words?Meaningless words?To let us feel tat u care for us bt u actually dun?You are juz doing ur job and nw ur job are done and nw,to u..we are 'NOYB'?Hw long hav i nt heard you asking me "hw's ur work","are you still able to manage it","tonite do u hav any dates,etc..can you work for OT tonite"..such sentences to let me feel tat u actually care.Nw,tis wk...out of all the container,tomoro is the end of the wk,and still hav 2 haven done,yet..u did nt even care abt it,why?Is it nt impt or is it u dun care anymore?I wan u to noe,tat idiot guy hav pass his work to me already,i told u before,u ask me to tell "ur assistant",bt he juz ask me to learn frm him,so yah..i hav to learn frm him and he say next mth,tis will be my job,are u aware of tis?Really i am gonna to do tis oso?U told me dun care him,u dun wan me to take down tis responsible,bt...when he come to me,u are nt around,hw am i gg to let u noe?I even find it hard to talk to u.The attitude u show to me oso seems abit diff,is i over-sensitive?I dunno..I juz feel upset,very.The whole day at work,I am juz holding on to tat stupid smiling face,bt crying so hard inside.Juz a little action u do,can wipe a little tears off my heart.Lik a fool,why am I so relying on u. :/

2011-06-17T22:54:00.001+08:00

I scare,I try,I fail,I hold on,I success,things change.I scare again,I hold on again,things getting more and more complicated again,I still want to try again,but..I scare I may fail someday again.The senior's over thr advised me,dun care..dun tink whether I can do it or not first,I grab the chances,grab the opportunity first,until then everything's can be done.But if I scare tis and tat,afraid I am unable to do it,unable to make up my mind,waste my time,lost the chance,and tat's it.Chances onli passby you once,if you are lucky maybe twice,bt if you dun make up ur mind fast,it won't come back to u.Tat is wat I am worrying eh.Can I really do it?Can I make it?Can I?

Dun wan me to always work for OT till so late.Tell me abt ur story,share wif me ur story,u do tat to everyone u noe too?Being so caring,notice stranger's speak to me,worry i am unble to manage my job,worry I am hungry,worry I nv drink more water will fall sick,worry I feel warm,worry I feel tired running here and thr,etc.,is tat a boss to a subordinate care and concern or it actually mean sumthing?Below our conversation today and I feel is really interesting.

U: Do u lik to eat swt?
M: Er..yea.
U: What swt u lik?
M: LOL..er..swt that taste nice?
U: LOL...what an ans.
M: Haha.
U: Then u lik chocolate?
M: Yes.
U: What chocolate you lik?.......Don't tell me chocolate that taste nice hoh.
M: HAHAHA!!
U: You know last time I buy one chocolate for my gf's mother.The shop is at vivocity,call.......er.....
M: Candy empire uh?
U: No,nw close already,change to geography shop..call "XXX"
M: Oh.
U: Then the chocolate is 90% bitter,my gf's mother eat already immediately feel spiritual.
M: LOL...HAHAHA.
U: U want I buy for u?
M: HAHA..don't want!I got eat before :D *walk back to my desk*

Wat a conversation we had,haha..I believe thr's no boss outside a big co. as gd as u lerHx bah.Anw..u are actually being "force" to be our boss in the first place rite,nw..seems lik u are gg back to ur old position soon,and u are looking forward to it,am i rite?Wat plan do u guys really hav?Pls dun put me into a situation I will feel terrify,tat I am unable to manage it,I dun wan history to repeat.Save me!!!!!!!

2011-06-02T19:46:00.000+08:00

Argh!!!!!!!!Shit!Why are you so caring,don't you know over caring can make someone misunderstand?Haix..is not your fault,is mine..I am crazy I guess.What am I tinking,I know tis shldn't happen,bt why I juz can't control,I always lose to tis matter,always lose.Can't I learn to control my feeling?Pls nt let tis be the case.Well...come back to my job.I am alrite,still alrite yet,bt dunno why...feel tat the major things coming towards me,reaching me soon,I am juz a useless person who rather lead a simple and normal life rather than a complicated and luxury life,in another word,I rather earn $1800 doing wat I noe rather than earning $2000 and I hav to learn everything,though I know tis kind of tinking is stupid,selfish and foolish,but I can't help,tis kind of tinking juz keep on appearing.I juz hope it won't be a tough life for me.I am starting to worry.For wat I am doing nw,I am used to it.Bt for wat I am learning nw,is still new to me.Tat's why,behind is wat I am most worried,who can help me at tat time,who will appear to be my guardian,lead me,till I can be independant.Who will?

2011-04-27T19:52:00.001+08:00

Awww...I am so free these two days.After the OT last fri,I haven been working on anything tis wk.Bt,tat's not a gd thing,I dun feel happy at all,cos I noe I am free cos they can't catch up,nt becos everything went smooth.So after they are done,I gonna be super rush.Suddenly,I feel pity on my boss,too gd to let those devil bully.Haiyoyo,why tis society lik tat?Ppl bad to u,u complain,ppl gd to u,u wan take advantages.Bt tat's nt my business,yea..I juz scare in the end,dunno hw will it be.Why isit lik they wan to push everything to me,juz becos i am the onli capable SYSTEM CLERK thr?Wtf?Then hired tat new system clerk for fuck?He can't finish his work not becos he gt many work to do,bt becos he is slow!And same thing here,I am free nt becos I gt nth to do bt becos I am fast,bt if u try to open the container and see,I am oso fucking busy okie!:/ Tat's why I hate to be free,I rather everyday busy bt things go on smoothly,rather than I am super free today bt hav to rush lik mad the next day.Argh shit!Tomoro gt meeting,all staff meeting eh,zai bo?I am new staff..hav to self-intro,feel quite nervous,scare lata embarassing xD.Jiu wo!~~~

2011-04-13T20:37:00.003+08:00

Congrats on the increasing of pay?Bt hw come i dun feel the happiness of the increasing?It's lik i feel more to fear and worried rather than exciting and happy.Becoming one of the co.,pressure came the next day,again new things,it's gd learning new things,yes i noe..bt,while learning..u still hav to worried ur job behind,u can't concentrate,cos watever u are doing onli u noe,once u stop,everyone's gt nth to do.Wow..can u imagine the pressure?Somemore the system giving me prob today,laggy..due to upgrading of system -.-.FML...i feel tense easily,and i seriously dun lik myself to be tis way,cos it will onli shows hw stupid and dumb i am.I will fall,surely will..bt when tat day arrives,i hope i will tell myself to standup and overcome it.I hope i wun giv up,wun tink of foolish stuff,i have told my mum today,if thr's a small co. offer me $1500,and i juz hav to do the same things all the way till i left the co.,and one big co. which could offer me $2000 bt wan me to keep on upgrading,learn and do alots of new things,i would rather choose the $1500 one.When i say tis,i feel myself such a failure.Aren't i?I dunno why tat i dun hav the motivation,dun hav the willing to learn spirit,bt i oso hope i can be lik them,noe everything and so...bt,i am lack of the confident,i hav no confident.Lik thr are plenty of things i hav to learn,bt..does my brain hav enough memory?LOL...arghhhhhhhh..............i feel stress can :(.And......IDIOT BIG BOSS!WHY DO I HAV TO WEAR SAFETY GLASSES IN INBOUND AREA __.Are u gonna pay me back my perfect eyesight if i were to hav shortsighted due to wearing tat SAFETY GLASSES?Damn,i will see u use wat to pay me back!KNN!

2011-03-31T18:56:00.002+08:00

I can't believe it,did i unintentionally kill my dad?I watch one show,it explain when a person lost its conscious,u cannot force to turn its body or pull tat person up,or else..it will cause brain dead.Fuck,why am i so stupid at tat time,why did i onli realise all these nw,why i onli tink clever bt do nth?When dad fall,i shld call ambulance in the first place,then do CPR for dad,bt why didn't i tink of tat?When dad fall,wat i do was onli keep asking dad wat happen to u,being so lost,doing nth,i even force to pull him up when i noe i shldn't,i forget abt 995,i forget abt shouting his full name,i forget abt CPR,i forget and it was so impt bt i forget,i am nw feeling so guilty,it was all too late,it's too late.I am so sorry,dad..i am sorry.

2011-03-21T22:21:00.002+08:00

The first time i saw u,i nv tink tat i would get to noe u,or even become friend wif u,if nt for her..i wouldn't hav get to noe u,i swear.After i hav noe u,we chit chat,we laugh,we smile,we play,we jk.Falling for u hav nv crossed my mind at the point of time,nt becos u are nt gd,bt i nv dare to,and so..i stay a distance away,nv dare to let myself cross the line,bt why...why do u treat me so well at tat time,let me thought tat u can be the one,let me interested in u,and then nw..u leave me.U are lik the second him,the one i waited for yrs,did u appear to hurt me harder?U came to help me to keep my thing,u keep calling my name,play with my name,u giv me a choco,u let me hav ur seat,u came to chat wif me while i am lonely,u saw i am frustrated,u came to ask me wat happened,u notice bored and u get a bottle of drink for me,and u send me a msg on fb instead of sending her,u on webcam and show me ur face instead of showing her.Lik..why,u treat me so specially to make me mistaken tat u feel for me,bt...tat wasn't true.Or is it i am too sensitive tat's why i feel so?Yah right,i guess shld be i too sensitive,cos i shld noe the feeling of interested in a person,u wun be so cold,u will treasure the moment u can chat wif the person,u will open webcam for the person even if u dun open for anyone,u will wan to go out wif tat person even if u hav to meet ur friends.Tat's the way if u interested in tat person.Can i lik,stop being troubled by the same prob again?It's kind of childish,i am no longer a teenagers,talking abt crush,talking abt lov,nw..shld talk abt money,shld talk abt future.LOL.Well..i am juz bored,yea..i am.

2011-03-11T18:53:00.000+08:00

Juz becos i am anything,doesn't mean u can ask me to do everything.Wth...u let them free of troublesome,bt..did u tink of hw troublesome i will be?Alittlebit,and alittlebit,add and add it's already nt alittlebit.I am busy enough.If,thr's onli FCL for me to do,then...alrite,i might be fine wif it,bt...did u consider while i doing FCL,thr are alot of LCL i hav to do oso,and tis uncle is always giving me prob,pushing all his "unknown" to me,unlik the uncle tat has been sack,he IS much more better,he wun push all the "unknown" to me,and still..he will help me to lessen my prob.Why did the co. sack him,it's the co. loss.I am introducing my friend to the co.,if..she is nt being selected,then well...maybe i wun stay in the co. for long period,anytime i feel i am enough of it,i will consider to quit.I am tired of it.I admit,u are a nice boss,compare to other's boss out thr,bt...u onli consider for those uncles..it's nt u didn't consider for me,bt..u keep on adding job for me to do cos of those uncles,and it's in the situation of u noe i am busy.It's either i am very very busy or very very free,why can't it be balance?Why can't the situation change?And i fcuking tulan to hear ppl thr saying "I see u so free ma,lik nth to do",shut up when u dunno anything,u tink onli u are busy?Fcuk,or are u blind to see i am actually busy?Do i need to let u noe wat i am fcuking busying abt?Dun tink u are cute when u say tat,dun tink i will entertain u when u say tat,one or two times i am fine wif it,bt hw many times do u wan to say?And dun complain and complain abt the part are nt at rite location or wat,i am nt the one doing,pls fcuking go and tell the person who is doing tat,hw many times do i hav to repeat,IT'S NT MY BUSINESS! :/

2011-03-01T21:33:00.001+08:00

I start to miss my baobei xixi =(.Being so abnormal today juz becos i really miss tis little cutie.Bt...she no longer take care by mum,tat's fact.I tink of sumthing today,and i feel kinda sad after having tis thought.My previous boss has retired,ytd was his last day..."retire",tis word..remind me of my dad,at my tis age,i am envious of my boss tat after his all tis yrs of hardworking,he can finally retired and stay at home to let his child take care of him and he can enjoy "tian lun zhi le",bt...for my dad,he oso been hardworking for so long,he even younger than my boss,bt why he dun hav such a gd fortune,why he pass away so early and he can't even be by our side when we really need him.I hav watch the movie "da shi jie" wif my uncle family and my family,after watching the show,i am very curious abt tis place(da shi jie),bt..my mum can't tell me much abt tis place,cos..she live in malaysia,so she dunno very well abt tis place too.Then,she said...if dad was around,he will tell u all more abt tis place,he even win a trophy for singing competition in "da shi jie",thr comes the "sour" feeling.LOL...tink so much oso no use.It's all destined.

2011-02-24T21:51:00.000+08:00

Today...was a sad day,cos thr was a sad news,argh.........i thought everything will be fine,as time pass,things will get more smooth,bt..it doesn't seems to be tat way.One uncle in the co.,i always call him uncle guang,his job is to receive delivery item and giv the document to me,for me to do receiving,and we work very well.Bt...things changed,he has been fired,i dun really noe the main reason,gt ppl say tat his boss(agent) swap him to another co.,gt ppl say he offend my boss,oso gt ppl say he offend the big boss during cny celebration in the co. by hitting the table for fun.Either reason i oso can't accept it,it's all damn ridiculous,he work so hard and being so efficient bt juz becos of the lame reason and he hav to left the co.,worst is nobody can replace wat he is doing,cos nobody is as fast as he can be,first is my working partner,then is tis uncle,wat's next?Everyone related to my surrounding all left,so why am i still thr?I really dunno,damn..today work OT again,OT isn't a matter,bt..my baobei xixi(kid that mum babysit) will be going to childcare soon,and i wan treasure this few more days to dote on her,bt if i work for OT,then i will hav no chance to play wif her.The agent call me today,told me a "good" news,he say it is,then it is lo,bt..to me,i am nt very happy to noe tat the co. wan to convert me to perm staff,do i really wan?HAHA!I dunno -.-.I onli noe i am getting tired,each and everyday,i thought i wun tink of leaving the co. anymore,bt...i really wan to noe yes/no.Which decision is better?

2011-02-16T19:10:00.002+08:00

No matter wat,i am still a human onli,at the very stress point of time..i will still tink of banging wall,stop my breathe,being a superwoman,use a knife to end my life,all sorts of stupid thing,yes...stupid thing,cos nw i am still okie..i am still at clear minded,tat makes me tink it was stupid,bt...when all the pressure come to me out of sudden,all those stupid thing makes me feel better after doing it,bt...doing it did nt really solve my prob,and it make me feel more worst after my clear mind come back,cos i will tink,wat did i done to myself,wat stupid stuff did i do.Thr was once when i am 17,i did tat stupid thing,ended up all my loves one found out,and tat make them feel worried for me,and i regretted,especially my dad..he bought a so called "amulet" for me.He wan me safe,and..i told him,i already hav it,juz nt using,bt...i still take it,and hang it on my phone,till nw..it's still on tat phone.Everytime working,the place tat wait for the co. bus,remind me of the days when dad call me and ask me whr am i,then drive me home frm thr,when it rains, it remind me of if dad is still around,he will come and drive me home,though maybe if dad is around,i wun be working,might still be studying or wat,i dunno.Bt...nw,nth can change.Nth will change the fact of wat past hav been.I really miss hw my life used to be,the life tat whenever i am back home frm sch,dad and mum was around..the baby tat mum babysit was cute,and bro and sis was back awhile lata,we had dinner tgt.Sun,we went out tgt,we chat tgt,talking the same topic tgt,lik so long ago,tat kind of happiness seems to hav gone further and further.Sometimes,i keep tinking,tink and tink...wat can i do to hav back all,i would even wan to use my life to change tat few hrs of happiness.

2011-02-07T22:10:00.001+08:00

Holiday pass really fast,and today..i hav to start work again.So tired.Mentally,physically.I dun understand why,no matter hw caution i am,still..i will make mistake,today..same thing happen,bt..i am wondering,isit really my fault when tis error happened?Seriously...i dunno,and it's onli the first day after cny and tis thing happen,zen me ban?Been tinking,i will quit after 3 mths,bt...i hav hesitated too.Tis is an opportunity for me to learn and earn money bt..i dun lik.Wat if i quit and find other's job?Who can say tat i will surely find a job better than tis?Maybe worst?2 persons frm the company was telling me tat tis job is an gd opportunity for me to learn,and grow,and gain experiences.If i find other's job,will i feel so "tired" too?Isit becos of tis job or every job will be the same?I seem to make alots of mistake,why...i need the previous guy to be around to teach and lead me,i dun wan tis new gal tat i hav to teach her and lead her while i,myself haven really gt a pict of hw everything was functioning.Nt easy u noe?Left side,right side,infront,behind,all need to be done by u alone and yet all hav to be very caution,no error can be done.I feel lik to cry out loud when i need to,bt..the location is nt rite,bt when thr's a location for me to do so,i dun feel lik crying anymore,so whr did those feeling goes to?LOL.

2011-02-01T20:39:00.000+08:00

Today is the eve of Chinese New Year eve.And is the day u are nt coming back and i hav to count on myself in the co.,morning and thr's prob -.-,firstly...thr's one document tat i hav done gr when i juz enter the co. nt long ago,bt...the qty was gr wrongly due to the document was nt clear,and today...the prob came to me,and yea...tat was a lesson to learn,after tat...uncle guang wanna find document for the long box u told me ytd,bt...ytd was too busy and i hav somehw forget wat u told me,bt i still rmb u tell me u hav giv it to our boss bt he said dun hav.So..tat's hw i get ur contact no. and call u using co. phone asking u abt the document,and...i am missing the days wif u around.Thr's a new gal came today,reminded me of the first day when i juz enter the co.,when the gal tat hav taught u,ask u to taught me wif hw the things operate,at tat moment,i was tinking..if in future,thr's new ppl,i will ask u to teach him/her,i dun wanna teach.Bt,i hav nv tink tat u will leave the co. so early,and...i hav to teach tat gal lik hw u used to teach me,and u noe..i realise tat it's nt an easy task,cos...i hav so much things to do,and i will scare she will do it wrongly,i start to tink back..why would u dare to let me try out everything u noe,and u actually teach me wif all the things before u get ur things done,dunno hw to say...bt the feeling without u in the co. is juz..blank?Nt mind,bt heart..it was so wrong.I noe it,bt..hw?My mind juz fill wif the days when u are around.And for nw,i feel the pressure..i hav to teach the new gal,i hav to do all the daily routine,and...i hav to learn the new things.Is tat life?Will thr be better job outside?Or tis is the basic thing every job requested for.Without u...can i survive in the co.?

2011-01-28T20:18:00.000+08:00

All along since i enter the co.,u hav been teaching me all and all.U asked me to rmb,rmb and rmb...u ask me no matter wat i do,if dunno..ask,ask already..if sumthing happen,nt our fault already,ask me to protect myself wif everything i do,yea...i noe,bt..i am juz clumsy,sumtimes...i dunno why things happen when i hav already been very careful wif everything i hav done.And when it happen,u are always around to settle the prob for me,day and day passes..it became a rely,and nw...i am relying on u,i can't believe tat's true,bt tat's fact,mon...it will be ur very last day in the co.,my mood are down all the way,all the way,i dunno why...hw,hw am i gg to survive without u in the co.,juz lik today..everything was a mess,and u were thr to settle.U actually told me u wun be coming today,bt..did u came for me or for other reason?Wat a weird feeling i hav,after mths..hw would i be,i wanna be ur friend,bt...after u leave the co.,will we become stranger?One day in the road,will we still recognise each other?Tis fate is weird,and it ended too fast.It's juz 2 wks.I still hav 2 mths 2 wks more to survive in the co. myself,today u said,mon will be ur last day settling all u can settle for me,and i oso said,today is the last time u help me to keep my goggles in ur locker,hw sad when tis two sentences was being said,i feel sad..u?Why am i nt the one who leave the co. first,the place does nt belong to me,i noe nth abt tat place,i noe nth abt tat job,bt why the one who's leaving is u?

U are special,special frm those ppl i hav met so far,if nt u are diff frm me,i will fall for u.

2011-01-24T21:53:00.000+08:00

It's my fifth day working in the company,the fifth day ONLI,oh pls..thr is lik another 2 mths plus before the contract end.Will i leave tis job at the end of the day,well...life tis kind of thing is kinda hard to say,so i shall nt say nw.Bt..for nw,i seriously damn feel lik to leave tis job,working environment warehse nvm...the job is stressful nvm...bt..why the place dun hav a person i can even talk to during teabreak,lunch time,waiting for bus time.All are uncles...yea,we did talk,bt..uncles still talk more to uncles,for my age..all are malay guys,yes..we did talk,bt...most of the time they are talking over themselves wif malay language,and then..can imagine tat pict of me?Stoning,so yea..thr are 3 breaktime each day and i onli go for maybe 1 time a day,and waiting for the bus,i juz standing aside,the security guard thr was funny though,as i am the onli gal overthr,so he ask me to stand at the place with shelter so i wun kana the sun,bt..actually the security was trying to ask me leave those guys further,lol.It was getting more and more stressful,seriously...today,the supervisor overthr talk to me,he say..the place are fill with carton of box,he is nt satisfywif it,he say tat shld be clear soon..though he talk politely with nice tone bt...i feel lik telling him,before i came,the place already fill with all these carton of boxes,i am nt in charge of it,the guy didn't taught me tat as well..so far,i onli noe i hav to do updates of location,and GR all these.So...wat u expect me to do,do u wan me to carry those carton of boxes away?-.- Thr are so much error we hav while doing GR,u tink it's easy?With those prob u tink we lik?We dun wan to finish those GR faster?Why nw then tell me tat thr are vacancy at my friend job,thr will be njrc at the march,is onli for tis,or it's same for all?

2011-01-16T13:24:00.000+08:00

Aww..so tired nw,went out ytd.Shopping wif esther,town...nice,i waited for her at somerset for 45 mins.LOL.Then finally she reached,then we start to shop..go cineleisure to hav our lunch,wanton mee,then shop shop awhile..walk to dhoby POMO,thought i can finally buy the brush cleaner at cosmoprof bt no stock and asked me come back on mon,bt i guess impossible,cos will be gg bishan and after tat,lazy?Haha..then such a BIG RAIN,so we went cathay yakun and hav some coffee/tea,bread and egg.And we suddenly mention all the past,then so coincidence tat june tai and andrew at somerset so we meet them at cineleisure,then shop shop and train to bugis,reach bugis and they went mos burger to hav dinner then after tat..went to pool..after pool,we queue to buy koi and after koi we went back to boon lay,waited for kenneth to arrive and he drive us back to change shoes,as we decided to celebrate june tai b'dae in advance so we go prawning at farmart,at cck.Prawning was boring bt becos was wif old friends,so it was fun (;.Actually it was onli until 1am plus,bt we extend the time so until 3am then we went off,thought we can bbq the prawn bt the charcoal is wet,so it was nt allowed,andrew and june tai try to drive the car and it was lol..haha.After tat,went batok the place tat sell prata bt it was close and nobody wanna eat so yea..kenneth drive us one by one home,reach home at abt 4am plus...it was late,lol...so reach home,wash up and went to bed,morning waked up at 10am plus.Bt nw still feeling tired,gg to bed soon..byebye.

2011-01-10T17:49:00.000+08:00

Watching new show recently,today watching the last epi,epi 5.Inside the story,tat guy said a words and yea..i agree,为什么好人都要死,behind..i added 活着的都是虚伪的人,tis story is rather touching,it shows abt sec sch life,teenagers...erm..hw to say,quite similar to the show i watch previously,the death girl.Tis show is 他們在畢業的前一天爆炸(Days we stared at the sun).Poor,and wealthy is the cause of the world to be messy.Bt without tis causes,the world would be boring i guess...tis is an interesting show,a short and interesting show (:.

2011-01-08T12:19:00.001+08:00

I wonder,did i lose patience in kids?Or isit these two are diff frm those previous one.I noe for those kids mum took care of previously,i did beat them before,i did scold them before,bt nt to the extent tat i lost control,for these two..well...one is still okie,bt another one is lik,omg..lik one day she nv scold/beat by me,she feel itchy.I can onli say i really lose to her,she can cry lik nobody business whenever she lik,being scolded or beated,she still can throw temper to tat person,wat kind of kid she is sia?Wah...she can make me scare of kids -.-.Bt seeing outside those cuter kid,luckily i am still nt to the extent tat dislik kid,LOL.Haix...when will the life of me earning money and every yr go somewhr holiday wif family start?I am awaiting,yea..i am.Hm...i start to miss the childhood in bukit batok out of sudden,we are still so simple,ignorance,we laugh out so real,cry out so real.And..most imptly,i nv see my parents having financial prob at all until we move to jurong area.If staying in bukit batok can let us live better,can let dad survive longer,i dun understand why we hav moved hse last time.

2010-12-26T16:29:00.003+08:00

Yea..blogging abt mum b'dae and it was x'mas eve,the day before..carina came to our hse and celebrate for mum in advance,she went jp wif bro and spended 2 hrs to decor the cake for mum,haha...after tat when they are back,they hide the cake without letting mum noe and when sis is back frm work,then we giv mum surprise by off the light and take out the cake frm kitchen,the next day..was mum actual b'dae,morning to noon nth much happened,during evening abt 6pm,we start to went out and celebrate for mum,firstly i went to take the cake i bought for mum,then we went marina square Paris to hav buffet dinner,treat by bro,sis and sis's bf.7 of us..mum,bro,bro's friend,sis,sis's bf,me and esther.After dinner,we cut the cake,sing b'dae song and giv the present to mum in the restaurant,the present was a bag mum wanna bought the other day bt she didn't and then me and sis secretly bought it for her.After the whole celebration,we plan to go orchard bt sadly,halfway to orchard,mum highheel spoil and the whole plan was spoil,bt the main reason i believe is becos of the kid mum take care is coming back,and mum dun wanna let her mum wait for so long so she decide to go home,alrite...i can say tat moment is totally "sian",spoil mood..thought we are able to celebrate it bt in the end -.-.Yah..so we went home,and...tat's the nite.The next day,as usual..we went to marine parade,2nd aunt(father's side) hse to celebrate x'mas,presents exchange,reach thr around 1pm,non-stop eating and watch tv,went off at abt 5pm..grab a present and 2nd uncle drive us to the nearest mrt station then we take train,actually we wanna go plaza sg bt malaysia aunt came sg so mum wanna to meet her and xiaojiu they all at jp,then sis went to watch movie wif her bf,hm...walking around jp and went home,tired..bt mum wanna go grandma hse,alrite..then i go wif her,after tat we went home,noe wat?Heavy rain plus thunder storm,wow...nice,mum and me whole back was wet,cold...hahaha,then home,bath and slp.Merry belated x'mas (:

2010-12-14T12:22:00.001+08:00

Back frm Royal Caribbean!My first cruise trip (:.Well..it was consider avg,nt really fun.LOL.Morning mum and me push luggage to uncle hse and we move on tgt to harbourfront to check in..and tat was very troublesome,we gone through alot of check in and finally we went in the cruise,the first thing of cos is to take videos and photos then explore!And hav some buffet lunch.Alrite...and finally back to the cabin,our rm...me and carina cousin share a rm at deck 2 while others include my mum was at deck 6.Changed to our formal dress and meet them at deck 6,then went romeo and juliet dining and hav our dinner,mum and me was located at table 6 while others at other table.After dinner,we went to entertainment theatre and watch some show,then went back to rm..and at midnite,carina and me went up deck 10 to view the sea and hav some supper.

Second day,morning waked at 6am and change clothing,as usual meet up uncle family,mum and cousin at deck 6,then went romeo and juliet hav breakfast,and we went to walk around at deck 5 the shopping,after tat back to rm,nap awhile and lunch time,romeo and juliet dining again,after tat,went in to casino,haha..lik so finally thr's a place allow me to went in,bt...keep on losing :/.Then the cruise is lik swaying...make me feel so uncomfortable,then vomited -.-.Cousins went swimming then grandma,mum and me went thr hav some hotdog,pizza,fries and drinks (:.After tat went back to rm...slack slack awhile went mum rm slack slack again then dinner time,went to romeo and juliet dining again (:.Except for the 1st day and last day dinner,most of the time we are sitting tgt,went entertainment for show again,one singer went down of stage and sing infront of me,omg..so ps,hahaha,then saw a dancer drop the tied,my gosh,was cute..he realised tat we saw it and keep smiling and making some face and make us laugh lik wat,at midnite..thr was a pool party,buffet..was full so didn't eat much,went casino again,tat was seriously a terrible nite,the waves was quite huge and causes the cruise shake alot,i was feeling seriously giddy and went back rm myself and vomited,slp kinda early.

Third day,suppose to waked at 6:30am bt due to my phone timing suddenly change to indonesia timing late by 1 hr and we was late,luckily..we received rm calls frm mum and cousin to waked us up,i take a look at outside view was sunny and ask cousin waked,time was already 7:10am,i hurry up brush teeth and prepared,ready at 7:15am,ask cousin to waked and wait for her for half an hr -.-.Then meet up uncle they all at romeo and juliet dining and get scolded.After breakfast,we went entertainment and gather,today..we are gg to KL.Went out of cruise,1hr 30 mins reach KL and take photo at "shuang zi xing building" and up to bus and one more place to take pict,bt i didn't went down,after tat we went "chi zhong ga"dunno hw to spell,LOL..shop shop and back to bus,nw..the last place,hav our lunch over thr and shop awhile then back to bus and travel back to cruise,reach cruise...mum and me went in casino and hav some bet,hahaha..won US60 and slack here and thr awhile then last day of dinner at romeo and juliet,9 peoples table onli hav mum and me sitting thr,was romantic..HAHA..then get to chat wif a waiter frm china(hubei),lol...he entertain mum and me =P,casino after dinner,as mum and me onli gt two person so the food came out very fast while uncle they all still eating,so mum and me went in casino,tis time..i actually won alot.Bt..after some disturb,i slowly lose alot,frm hundred over lose till left eighty,mum accompany grandma back to rm..left me and cousin,mum giv me US20 and ask me go try my luck again,lol..so i actually lose it,then cousin take US5 and i won twenty plus,then i take US10 and cousin take the rest,we play and play till last my US10 lose back -.-..shldn't hav waste it all,around 2am plus we went back rm,take shower and slp.

Last day morning,went to hav breakfast and prepare to went home,reach home and bitch wifey was at my hse (:,we went jp to hav lunch and went home,hav some nap till 5pm plus and went pasar malam to buy food for dinner,went home eat and tat was all i guess,time to look for a job,tired ttm.Lazy to upload photos over here so may take a look at my fb (:.

2010-11-29T14:28:00.000+08:00

Juz finish watching the taiwan drama Endless Love(爱无限).It was the last epi,epi 15...the ending was touching,and nice ttm.Lov tis show alot,quote of the show “只要被红线连结在一起的人，无论有什么深仇大恨，最后都一定会在一起的”。And yea,the moral of tis show is abt 月下老人的红线。Interesting isn't it?I guess other than Meteor garden,MVP Valentine,tis was the best drama,bt of cos oso Mars,and some other show which i mention before.Been watching Gloomy Salad Days(Death Girl) tis taiwan drama too,tis show was mostly showing abt secondary school most of the teenages kind of life,oso nt bad too (;.Shall blog till here,byebye.

2010-11-23T21:49:00.000+08:00

突然间不见。
Nw mum is explaining wat happened to dad to a friend of my sis,reminded me wat happened "last nite",hw torturing is 2008.Nt easy,yet...2 yrs hav passed,yea..sometimes,i will tink and tink,if dad is still around,everything would be diff,will my jie and i further our studies?My family financial hw?Bt i believe,my hse tat 2 kids would be doted by him,hw i wish to hear him saying,"yiling uh,dun scold/beat them,they are still a kid,talk properly to them",hw u used to say to me when tat time mum taking care of xuan xuan,and i guess tat's oso why i slowly more and more doted on xuan,dad..u noe,thr's a little monster in our hse nw,worst than hw xuan used to be,tis little monster always cry and cry and cry,1 day 3 meals plus supper cry and cry,no reason,non-stop..talk to her she oso wanna cry,i am so curious if u were around,hw u manage her...bt another one was cute,she is keep on smiling and being funny,so..all of us juz doted on her,if u were around,which one will u doted on?For wat i tink,i guess will be same as us,bt..u oso will doted on the one keep crying bah?Dad...i am trying to find a job tat suit me,i found a few,bt..i didn't go for it,cos...i always feel tat thr's better one behind,am i wrong?Shld i juz pick a job and go for it?Or can i slowly find a one tat really satisfy me?Am i being too greedy?Shld i lower my expectation since i am nt a clever person?I let nature take its course,is tat an excuse for me to be lazy?Hope i am nt.Dad...we miss u!!!!!

2010-11-18T19:26:00.000+08:00

Tired eh..very tired,u noe?U noe wat is tired?
In my hse,lik all of us are tired,be it my bro,be it my sis,be it my mum,be it me.
We are all tired.
Is everyone of u out thr tired too?

2010-11-11T23:33:00.000+08:00

Went for job interview tis morning,on the way inside the train..i am really very worry,i worry for many things i couldn't explain,bt after interview,i can onli say..i wanna try out for tis job,the person say lastest will let me noe by mon whether i am being selected anot.And wat i can do nw..is onli wait (:.I am watching one taiwan drama nw..Endless Love 愛∞無限,intro by Ray,lol...as i was really bored so i went to watch and found it interesting,nw onli still at epi 6,haha...admire the guy in the show can work so hard for life,and the gal in the show tat work so hard for love,in reality..hw much courage a person need to do all tis,lol.

Nt so sure wat is tat.
Is i forget already,or i nv had tat feeling before.
If i dun lov,why i will miss,will feel diff when i happen to saw u,and for so many yrs,still the same.
If i lov,why i nv sad when u told me we dunno each other,nv sad when saw ur intimate photo wif her.
I believe i muz hav owe u in previous life.LOL

那到底是什么感觉，有时候很折磨人，有时候又好像什么都不是。

2010-11-03T23:29:00.001+08:00

Juz very sad onli,everytime...a new person who doesn't noe wat happened to u,asking me why u are gone,and i am gg to tink and tell them,i juz feel sad...tinking back,by telling abit it's alrite,bt today,i told my sec sch teacher abt wat happen to u in the hospital,so and so...do u noe,i feel heartache,for u..my dad.Did they hurt u when u are in hospital,do ur brain still work?Wat is the last thing u tink abt?Do u noe u are leaving us?I miss u so badly dad.If nw u are still around,wat is the situation?Hw diff will it be?Without u,we juz unable be lik before.In the hse,so empty...i dunno hw to explain it,bt juz...empty.

2010-10-12T23:50:00.000+08:00

Wat happened to me?I thought everything already ended and i already accepted it,bt...why,why am i feeling tis way?Becos of the drama?Dun foolish,it juz wun happen,next life probably,and i didn't realise i am the only one who haven remove our's name,until juz nw..then,i saw..i am the onli one,i removed after i realised none of u still putting it,bt...the feeling,suck.Why are we into these today?Wat are all the past mean to us?Lik we nv had before,it juz wun come back.Do u guys feel the same too while removing it...or juz a click,a backspace and then enter,tat's all?I found it hilarious,hw can we be so gd in the past and hw can everything juz end tis way?Lik a jk heaven giv to us,bt...tinking back,we are always torturing one another,nv really noe each others.I am sad,i am seriously sad.I hope sumthing could stop me frm feeling tis way nw,it's stupid,cos i dun feel worth,tat's my friendship...my family,few days ago,sumthing happened too,between me and my siblings,crying lik hell and make me almost repeat the same mistake,bt luckily i didn't do it too hard,wth...i dun lik my life to be tis way,hw i wish to be alone in a place wif nobody i noe for a short period of time,without my family worried abt me.Can tat be possible?Grant me pls...i am tired,seriously tired.

2010-09-28T00:34:00.002+08:00

For once,one grp of ppl was fated to do one thing tgt...every single day,they do the same thing,lead the same lifestyle at the same timing,and till the very last day,they gt to say gdbye to each other,and frm then onwards...they lead their own ways...and thr's nth can let u go back,tat was a memories,ppl who was nt in the grp are nt able to imagine hw fun it was too.For tis yr,i am leading tis life,in cosmoprof,in njrc,i feel so fortunate tat i hav once gone through it,bt...tat was seriously very short,after tat...my life would be bored?I guess...while tinking of it already feel bored,haha...bt..i hope for the gd one.LOL.If it could be and i shall enjoy for tis busy mth,gonna be my friend model on tis coming sat,then attend friends wedding next wk,genting on next next wk and my wife(esther) b'dae on next next next wk!HAHA..!And when everything end,and it gonna be time for serious.My hse tat monster i seriously cannot take it -.-,wonder hw am we gonna survive on genting when we are bringing her along,LOL..SHALL SEE xD.It's already 3 yrs,i thought dad u would get nearer frm us cos u are freedom,bt...it seem to be the opposite way,after 3 yrs,we get to drm of u lesser,and u are lik MIA,WHR ARE U?U are still our dad leh,pls dun run away,LOL...if nt i go thr,u will noe =x.Argh...I am so boliao larHx,wth...get moody nwsaday,when i hav no entertainment,and...when am i gonna get my pay?!!I need the money,lol...hope i dun spend too fast =x.

2010-09-11T20:03:00.000+08:00

Njrc is over,and so is my work,i already start missing it nw,oh my gosh...frm the first day we dunno each others,till we hang around,chat tgt,walk tgt...those kind of unbearing feelings really very very hard to juz leave it.Onli 2 wks and i am really enjoying it,i miss everyone i met over thr,all the staffs,tc's,cc's,ri's,students.I can't imagine next,wat am i gg to do,everything juz end lerHx..really gone through already,and nw it's onli left wif memories,i feel moodless nw,isit becos everything end already?Wonder why am i so emotional,bt i hav experience it,i noe it..and i am loving it.Presentation wk,1wk..doing ms,runner,rlc,registration,challenge wk,1wk..doing team coordinator tat lead those students frm my team front and back,throughout everything,tat's kinda interesting,tis is the first time i gone through all these,knowing so many new friends,i hope everyone feels the same as me too,the job tat let me learn so much,gain so much,frm 30 aug - 11 sep.

2010-09-03T20:47:00.000+08:00

I am working temp job nw,and i am actually enjoying it,bt after tat,wat could i be doing?I tink of all the laughter,bt..when it disappear,it onli left wif pain.I dislik those kind of feeling,especially these two days,why?Wat happened?I hope i could juz hit sumthing on myself to stop tat feeling,it's kinda irritating,dad...do u noe,u are one of the cause of tis feeling?When i tink of hw i use to laugh wif u,jk wif u,make u angry,let u nag and nw it was so impossible to done all these rite nw,hw pain the feeling is till i hope i can hit very very hard on my chest so the feeling can at least get replaced.I am mentally tired till i can't even force a faked smile,any entertainer for me?

Dad,3 yr is getting nearer.

2010-08-19T00:23:00.001+08:00

Shit my new phone larHx,it's making me mad xD,it messed up all my folder in my com as well as all the games in the phone -.-,tired uh..and,i hav drop 2 times,sadded..i hav gt nth to do,still no idea for portfolio =(.Hm...in cosmoprof i hav went for 3 projects,MBS,NDP and YOG.NDP cannot be compare to MBS bt YOG is worst,LOL...i prefer MBS and NDP.Haha....MBS is the most fun project i hav gone through larHx,miss those didi and meimei,they are so cute and their cute face are flashing in my mind xD.And the 3 buffet meal,haha.And yea...once again i hav saw him,bt..i doubt he saw me,even if he does,he dun even will giv a damn,i can onli say,i wan to saw u,i wan to see u,bt...i rather u dun appear as i wan cos i dun wan the feeling to grow deeper again,i totally can't remove,so i can onli leave it and hope it will fade and nt grow deeper.Wat he say to me,i hope it came out frm ur mouth,wat u say to her,i hope it was for me,bt...i hav tink too much,if it can happen,so many yrs shld be enough for it to happen,bt it nv.So leave it,move forward,yea..move forward. =)

2010-08-08T21:38:00.000+08:00

Today was happy (;.Morning hav mac breakfast at pm wif mum,bro,sis,liling(2nd monster),then went to giant hav a walk and back home,abt noon...ping xi(1st monster) came,as her parents was having sumthing on,so today she was coming to our hse too,we went to westmall tgt,finally today we can bought a new phone as contract reaching soon...i hav been using my samsung old phone as the lastest LG phone i suppose to be using already spoil,then get a new phone today after alot of consideration,haha...though it's nt the phone i actually wanna hav bt i will still treasure it,thks mum for paying for me,bt i really hope i can actually pay for myself,bt sadded,i still haven earn money,and dunno when can i earn money and help to decrease my family burden,i am gonna do it,hope it will be soon.After buying new phone,as it was already late so we went home,then wanna visit grandma(dad side),bt we reach thr,thr was nobody at home,so we visit another grandma(mum side) and went home at abt 8pm,shock news,bro,sis and me bought the same phone again,hahaha...it was the 3rd times,LOL...alrite,shall post till here (;

Dad,we miss u =)

2010-07-25T22:35:00.001+08:00

Today visited 2 grandma,haha..noon went to visit grandma(mum's side) with mum,then xiao jiu and xiao jiu mu went out to buy food,they oso bought durian,lol...i been waiting for tat sia =x,cos after dad passed away,nobody drive mum and me to Blk 500 sumthing to buy durian lerHx,ytd i hav gt nitemare,LOL..wat a jk =x.Alrite..then abt 3pm plus,we went home frm grandma hse,and jie asked me to do the blogshop things -.-,opening a blogshop for clothes soon (;,do visit and support..the link is aries-trio.blogspot.com.Abt evening,went to another grandma(dad's side) hse,with bro,sis and mum..grandma is getting better,hahas..she can recognise us and even talk to us (;.After visiting,we went PM to hav some drinks and went home,doing the blogshop again,juz finish =P.Tiring...lol.

Maybe..i am nt worth,cos i dun treasure.Bt...i dunno why,seriously dunno why.

2010-07-17T23:42:00.002+08:00

Today went to make-up for NDP performers for the 2nd times,morning i was abit late when i reach thr,lol..and tis time seems to be more fun and relax then last wk?I guess so..lol.Nt as busy as i thought it would be,dunno next wk hw,i hav tick 4 days,my gosh...wat excuse shld i use to skip the 4th day?It seems lik nobody gg for the last 2 days,today hav sumthing lik western as dinner,last wk was kfc,LOL...next wk wat will it be?o.O Those guys over thr was funny,trying to make a fool of their leader?Make us LOL over thr,haha..ended at 6pm plus,then i tink the way was blocked bah,so we walk underpass,then as i thought i would be taking train alone,then saw pawena walking towards me,take train tgt wif her,haha...get to noe her more,as we dun really get to talk in class,she say whenever she look at me,she tink of her sis,lol...her sis was same age as me,i saw her bloglink on fb and went in take a look,saw a side view photo of her sis,i was lik...her side view really sumhw look lik me sia,shock..haha,bt well...she say she might bring her sis as model for portfolio,shall see when the time arrives,haha.So she went off at clementi,and i get down at my place,haha..grandma discharge and went home lerHx,she say she was fine on phone,everyone take care (;

2010-07-15T23:23:00.001+08:00

I dunno abt ppl's life,bt...if u get to noe every single part of my life,will u still say a simple word such as "cheer up,be happy,etc."?I dunno hw ppl faces tough life,bt to me,i find it really nt easy,hw ppl manage everything tgt and nt mess it,bt i will crush it tgt,sumthing lik i can onli choose one among the two of it,lol...sumtimes,i was asking myself,isit becos i dunno hw to lead life?I been tinking so many things for the future,bt none of it is near to reality,cos why..i am drming,f rite?Till nw i am still drming,wat time isit?WAKED UP xD.I,really hope...everything went smooth...fear,i always gt the feeling of tat,why?Cos i am afraid,i dun hav the confident,i noe i am lack of tat,i noe i hav to mend it,hw?Tat's the onli thing i dunno,and oso...when i learn sumthing,i noe hw they do the thing,i noe hw they make the thing,the prob is,i dunno hw shld i do the thing,hw shld i make the thing,wth...aren't i idiot?I miss the past life,bt watever past is over,nw..is onli left wif present and future,i dun lik the present me,i can't predict the future me,so wat i can do nw is strive hard for present life to make it at least better,can i?

2010-07-02T22:28:00.000+08:00

Been quite some times i hav study for tis course,bt...i am still nt so sure abt doing it for real,and so...thr was an opportunity ahead for me to treat it as i am doing real,the NDP,bt..prob is,the way to make seems to be,wow...can i make it?LOL.And..wat kind of job i can find in future?I hav to travel around isit?I am a road imbecile,hw am i able the handle if it really happen?So many question mark,cos i oso dunno...haha.2 babies in my hse nw,lol..-.-.Quan's mum taught me hw to make sponge cake,i hav done a vanilla flavour tat time bt didn't take a pict,tis time i hav make a pandan flavour,and i am posting the pict (;

2010-06-17T20:32:00.002+08:00

I feel so moody rite nw,becos of some matter,i am always involve in matter which i dun wan to.Can i hav a choice too?I so damn miss dad,really...without a "F" it wun be "FAMILY".I am working very hard nw juz to hope a success in one day,will i hav the chance?So many question mark in my head nw,bt none stop of noises is coming towards me,sometimes..i oso wonder,did i really put in effort?Matter..let me rest.

2010-06-02T21:21:00.005+08:00

I saw one sentence,and find it meaningful so decide to post it,lol.
"People may forget what they have said,but you will nv forget the feeling they have made you feel."

2010-05-09T21:48:00.000+08:00

Firstly..Happy Mother's Day to all mum in the world,especially my mum (;.Ytd went to ex-tenant,ting ting wedding dinner,at Goodwood Park Hotel,at abt 6.45pm cab to orchard and hav the cocktail outside,7pm sumthing went into the ballrm and the wedding dinner start,kinda interesting,lol...sis and me was being asked to catch the bouquet,bt we didn't caught it xD.Dinner ends at 11pm and we waited for cab till 11pm sumthing and reach home abt 12am,slp...and morning,realise tat i hav rashes -.-,the worst one ever after,my leg,body,hand all oso hav,cos ytd i drink red wine and white wine without control xD.Hope can recover soon,the rashes very scary.LOL.Today went royal hotel for Mother's day celebration wif families,after celebration,slack at grandma hse,cut cake and then everyone went out left,uncle,aunt and me,then i went to slp.Waked up and mum they all was back,watch tv and went to hav dinner,oh yea..bro,sis and me oso celebrated Early Mother's Day for mum on fri,we hav dinner at jp jap restaurant,then oso bought cake for mum,gonna post picts (;

2010-05-01T11:46:00.001+08:00

Juz finish watching one show,tis show i had nv watch before until i went taiwan on last yr june and the tour guide show it on the bus for us to watch,it was a 1989 movie 鲁冰花,the front i watch seem abit boring bt funny until the ending i realise tis show was meaningful and nice,kinda sad too,although it was the 2nd time i watch tis show bt when the show come to the ending,i still cried.

2010-04-21T23:39:00.006+08:00

Unable to slp so came to blog.Wkdays hav gt nth much to blog abt,sat went dhoby wif mum and bro to do some stuff,sis work OT so nv go tgt wif us,then nth to shop so we went home early..next day,sun..went to one auntie hse at choa chu kang as her daughter's baby shower so invite us to her hse,hav buffet thr and take a look at the babyboy,lol...kinda cute.Then after tat,cab to lot 1 and shop thr,saw one boot..feel lik buying bt i still can't afford,forget it,anw...boot onli suitable to wear at some occasion,so buy already oso lik put one side,when really need it then buy bah xD.

2010-04-03T00:35:00.004+08:00

It's already midnite 12:35am,so it's 3 apr nw..and it's sis 21st b'dae,happy b'dae jie.(; Ytd,mum and me went out wif xiao jiu and his family,went whitesand at pasir ris then xiao jiu went to find dajiu and one cousin at a place for fishing,then after awhile grandma,mum and me oso frm whitesand,we walk to the place for fishing,saw uncle caught one medium size fish,lol...then mum,me and grandma walk back to whitesand and slack at kfc as abit drizzling,after awhile..xiao jiu came whitesand and drive us over to the fishing place again.Tis time,2 young cousins take a rope and wanna catch small fishes,i join to hav fun,haha...caught quite a few bt we let it go in the end.Oh yea,finish another show "The Myth",the ending hav gt no logic,bt i still lik the show,cos at least throughout the show was nt bad,it's onli the ending which spoil the show,evening having sis b'dae party at home so gt to slp early if nt noon thr will be something to busy xD.

continue ~

Finished sis 21st b'dae party,thr was so many ppls...lol,those old neighbours,sis colleagues,friends,cousins,all came...party ended at 10pm sumthing..posting some photos (;

2010-03-20T21:50:00.002+08:00

The morning express,i seriously lik tis show so much.I was onli 4 yrs old when i first time watch tis show.Do such person exist?Maybe for last time generation,so envy their class spirit,and everything,and if they didn't meet him(the teacher),maybe their future will be diff,who u met and wat u do does affect wat u will be and wat u will do for ur future,they did a great job,cos they are nt alone,if alone..can oso alone did a great job?Meaningful show and song,use ur heart to watch it and u will noe (;

2010-03-14T20:13:00.003+08:00

Hehehe...i am addicted to one taiwan show,name is "tian xia fu mu xing",hahas..wow...so envy one of the couple in the show,lol..so cute can xD.Anw...today went out wif mum,uncles and uncle's family.Went to one italian restaurant at holland village for lunch and inside is kinda high class,lol.The food was oso nt bad too.My phone suddenly auto shut and hang,screen cannot be seen even when i keep repeating take out the batt and put back,scare me..luckily it seem fine nw -.-.After tat we went to plaza singapura.Went burger king to hav taro pie then went to walk walk awhile and go kfc to hav cheesefries,after tat went to carrefour to shop,take few things wanna buy bt in the end put back everything as dun feel lik buying after a walk,lol...then abt 4pm sumthing went to drive bro and sis and went je coffeeshop to hav fish head steamboat.Full xD.Reach home,watch show and eat grapes,hahas..tat's all (;

2010-03-10T20:59:00.000+08:00

Seriously hav gt nth much to blog,bt here to update juz to make my blog alive,lol.I am doing almost same things everyday,and i hav finally found a job bt becos of my muddled,i lost the job =(,things happened tis way,i send email to some company and waiting for their reply,finally one person reply me and call me up,say i hav been shortlisted,bt wth is...i dunno why i forget wat he told me after the phone was hang,few days lata..i was wondering why the person didn't call me back after so long,and i finally remembered tat i hav been told to go for an interview bt i didn't,wat a waste...forget it,anw...i am stuck in between nw,juz waiting,when can i start?I am still waiting for an ans -.-.I dun wanna to waste anymore time,cos the more i wait,the more i am afraid.Although i dunno wat am i afraid abt,bt...thr are juz some feeling interfere me.

Dream...is bt a dream.

2010-02-23T19:42:00.001+08:00

Currently watching horror movie at miotv,Hon(soul,possessed),thr are 10 epi,lol...was nt bad,the ending nt gd bt it's quite scary,wanna find the video trailer to put on my blogger then realise tat thr are actually 2 diff version of tis show,the one i watch was okie,another one look scarier,and nt so gd,lol...it's kinda violent and scary.So dun watch if u will be scared (;

2010-02-20T12:10:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i wonder,why do i bother so much?U dun giv a damn to my concern,so why do i care so much for watever u are doing?U didn't even take serious watever i tell u,ur own things is more impt.Juz care for urself,tink for urself.Wtf?Am i somebody to u?Dun make one a priority when tat person onli make u an option,seriously..very true. =/

2010-02-15T23:27:00.003+08:00

Firstly,Happy Lunar New Year to all chinese (;.Here to updated my cny tis yr.On New yr eve's,noon went grandma hse to eat and went jp wif mum,aunt,cousin to kill time then back to grandma hse and stay thr till 5pm,went to royal hotel as usual to hav reunion dinner,after dinner went to chinatown...didn't went to walk,juz walk awhile and sit down thr see the ppl thr selling things.After tat back to grandma hse again,abit sian...countdown oso me alone sitting thr watch the tv onli,the rest dunno go whr.Bt in the end still okie larHx...at least gt play poker card,bt luck seem nt so gd,lol.Till 3am sumthing and back home.First day of cny,waked up at 8.30am,all still slping so i oso slp back,9.30 waked..all slping too,then gg to slp back bt while gg to slp again,mum waked and say,all waked up bath lerHx,gg to bai nian lerHx,okie...so we waked (;.Went grandma hse(mum side),bai nian,take ang bao...gamble again,hahas...erm,onli win very little xD,then abt 3pm sumthing went to grandma hse(dad side),bai nian oso..take ang bao and gamb again,hahahas...win abit too,abt 6-7pm went back another grandma hse,then slack abit and all adults went to casino..so we teens all went to lan and play game,and i dun lik to play so surf net for abt 2hrs,damn sian derHx xD.11pm plus went 651 coffee shop to hav supper and back grandma hse,one cousin is very rude and kana scold,dun mention lerHx..very spoil mood =/.So one cousin say i nv study for btt and he helped me abit,hahas..if i pass,thks ALOT to u (;.Then abt 3am sumthing,sis headache getting worst so bro drive us home,reach home slp.Morning again,waked..2nd day of cny,waked at abt 11am..bath,and went to grandma hse(dad side),mum went another grandma hse and actually she say gg to find us lata bt ended up she went malaysia wif uncle xD.Okie..nvm,we went to jp walk walk wif another 2 cousin as aunt all haven reach,cannot play..bro drive (;.Back to grandma hse at abt 1-2 hrs lata,aunt reach lerHx and so we gamble again...get 3 ang bao today,hm...at abt 10pm,bro drive us home,so..tat's all?Oh yea,happy belated Valentine day too (;.

2010-02-01T20:31:00.003+08:00

Somethings happened tis few days,dunno hw to say bt it's juz lik we once hold on to a kite,the kite once,fly smoothly in the sky and we thought thr is nth for us to worried,bt...none of us realise the wind was too strong,although the kite can take it bt the string can't,thrfore...the string breaks..and the kite was missing.We try to find bt we can't.I tink tat's wat's gg on bah,i can onli tink of tis example to speak out wat's the happening.It wun be alrite anymore,i guess.Cos no matter hw busy we are,one mth at least thr will be one outing,bt..guess,hw long since we last meet?At town or at city?Wat we done?Wat's the last grp photo taken?Excluding the buffet meeting,cos tat's was diff.Anyone rmb?Dun put the blame and tink,isit every single fault who didn't realise the string is gg to break?And while finding the lost kite,isit every single fault who didn't put in the effort?Anyone can replace any of us,bt they can't replace the memories we had tgt.

2010-01-22T23:29:00.000+08:00

I miss dad,i miss him.Why so hard to find a job suit me?Weird,found one weird job,complicated,i dun lik it..so wat to do nw?Haix -.-

2010-01-09T21:12:00.000+08:00

It's sat (;.Finally weekend,cos mon-fri is always repeating same things and i am so bored xD.Morning went 651 coffee shop for breakfast,after tat stay at home wif sis,bro went poly open hse wif his friends,mum went grandma hse,at abt 1pm mum,me and sis went cityhall,marina square walk walk,me and sis spend abt $7 for getting the ben&jerry ice-cream bt fail,spend abt $4 for other stuffs oso fail,so we go to eat Anderson ice-cream,walk walk and went up again and mum giv $2 to try get the ice-cream again,sis and me try and i finally get it -.-,shld hav get it earlier then dun need to waste money to eat the Anderson ice-cream,lol...then went to carrefour awhile and bro came find us at abt 4pm sumthing,we went to Tony Roma's and order St.Louis-Style pork ribs at suntec for dinner and was damn full,lata will post out the pict and u will get to noe why was damn full,LOL.After tat went to carrefour again,shop shop,bought sumthing and went tcc for coffee -.-,train home after tat,tired bt satisfy (;.

2010-01-03T00:02:00.001+08:00

Went out wif jie tis noon,went to marina square,sing k-box...jie treated (;.We gamble wif 2 k-box guys over thr,we play big or small,win..our prize is 2 cups of sprite,lose..we hav to take a pict and giv $2 for the photo,result is me and jie won bt we oso buy the photo,LOL.After k-box,went to eat,jie eat ramian and i eat xiao long bao xD.Rush home to get things and went to dearest hse.Talk.Pah.Settle.Eat buffet at dearest hse as her bro b'dae...then we sit over thr,talk talk...watch tv till 11pm and we went home.I am still waiting for the job result xD.

2009-12-28T22:26:00.001+08:00

ARGH.........hate finding job,everytime same situation,keep finding and finding,ended up always no result.Or too choosy?Haix...i dunno,fan si wo larHx xD.

不曾拿起，如何放下。

2009-12-25T22:43:00.000+08:00

HoHoHo...Merry x'mas,and yea...today is 25 dec,went to 2nd aunt hse in the noon,firstly we went to jp eat first then train to bedok,and walk at bedok awhile as sis wanna buy things,so after tat went to hav dessert and bus to marine terrace.Bt..we get down at wrong bus stop again -.-,it's the 2nd time,LOL..so cab to the place,no choice...cos weather damn hot,so reach lerHx..everyone was thr,eat and chatted thr,lol...bt after awhile,some cousins went fishing,some went beach and some went home...so left few ppl,taken some photos and exchange x'mas present and around 6pm plus,4th uncle drive us to eunos mrt station and mum,bro,sis and me train to orchard,wanna buy bag for mum as her b'dae present bt she dun wan,so nvm...bro treat her eat lo.Went to eat breeks?Yah..i tink so,hahas...order the drink named "blue dolphin",lol..and tat's all for today bah (;

2009-12-23T10:20:00.003+08:00

Is it a curse?Tis is the 3rd times,previous two yrs coming to the end of the yr,thr will be sumthing happened,no exception tis time,i can't rmb hw long i hav been searching a time to let my heart rest,it's always complaining tired,nt becos of nt enough rest,bt becos while resting,heart is still aching,a phrase "forget ytd troubles,start a brand new day",saying is easier than doing seriously.2007-dad kana slight stroke,kcje starting to change.2008-adapting new sch life,dad passed away,i was having a quarrel wif kcje and it is nt a small one,2009-families prob,financial prob,kcje prob and some personal prob.Whr the hell is those happiness?Ppl leading life,me too...bt why mine seem so suck?Wat's more surprise coming up next yr?Got my result today,my gpa is 2.2,i am nt surprise,bt...juz disappoint.Yea..shall end here.

p.s Thks cousins for the present (;

2009-12-20T00:10:00.001+08:00

Haix...-.- "shake head".

2009-12-16T23:25:00.000+08:00

Woo~..today baby came bt sick so her dad came to bring her see doctor and she went home,i went to 651 coffee shop buy noodles for breakfast at 11am for mum,bro and me,and yea...bro is back frm shanghai (;.Hahas...he buy a winter clothes,glove and a stamp wif my name on it for me,thks him so much,lik it (;.He bought something for my sisters too,when gt meet then giv it to them,lol.Bt tis trip he without us dunno hw to take care uh,giv ppl chop his money,LOL =X.Forget it cos it's over,went to visit grandma juz nw and she look quite fine compared to ytd..lol,hope she get well soon.

I am quite afraid,
starting to feel unsure,
bt i gt to make sure,
i wun really fall for u.

2009-12-11T14:18:00.003+08:00

Today..as usual,after breakfast wif mum,went grandma hse.I am so so so tired,every morning gotta waked so early,currently wanna find job,bt...dunno can find anot,meeting dearest on mon to find job,hope will one satisfy job (;.Waiting for bro to back frm shanghai,waiting for his present too,hahas...headache,sumthing happened,can't imagine.Forget it.

Almost falling in ur trap,
u are such a hypocrite.
Why would i believe in u?
I am glad i found out.

2009-12-08T12:21:00.004+08:00

New day again.3rd times taking care of baby myself,wth...ytd fail my btt,sisters all oso fail xD.They came to my hse after tat,slack at my hse till nite 8pm sumthing,then they went dearest hse for dinner,i went to grandma hse,sent cousins and bro off to changi airport,they gg shanghai,stay thr till 11pm sumthing and reach home 12am sumthing.Mum staying at grandma hse again.Slp...morning waked up 9am sumthing,morning phone ring waked me up and after tat mum back frm grandma hse nv bring key then press the bell oso waked me up xD.Then can't slp lerHx,went to pioneer mall hav breakfast wif mum,she went straight to grandma hse after tat,i went home,take care of baby again,tired xD.Life,can't be enjoy,why call life?Due to grandma situation,i can't go out wif mum even nw it's my holiday,i hav to stay at home taking care of tat noisy baby -.-.Today is my baobei quan quan b'dae,lol...didn't hav time to visit him,happy b'dae to him (;

Juz learned a lesson.
Momentary impulsive act,
can cost lifetime suffered.

2009-12-05T09:15:00.002+08:00

Wow..i was early today (;.Staying at grandma hse last nite,ytd...abt 5-6pm evening,grandma was groaning her injured leg was pain,until 8-9pm when xiao jiu was back frm work,mum told him tat grandma leg was swollen,then cousin call ambulance and grandma has been sent to hospital,and we follow on the back,reached...wait and wait while grandma was inside,i am nt surprise tat the nurses and doctors are middle-head thr,as i met once,tat was the reason tat cause my dad death.They forget to giv my grandma the relieve swollen medicine and they wrap my grandma leg until too tight,so it will become swollen,ytd reached home at 12am sumthing.Frm ytd till nw,grandma hav been saying her leg was pain.Ytd tat scene,totally reminds me of tat nite when dad fall and been sent to hospital,seeing mum expression,i knew wat she is tinking..same as me,tat nite scene,we thought everything would be okie until we hav been sent to a rm and counselling by a lady thr saying we muz hav prepared for the worst situation.And we cry lik nobody business.Mum noe wat i was tinking as well...lol,yea...i guess onli person involve can feel the pain of the counterpart bah.Gg to big uncle(father side) hse lata for bbq,so tired..didn't slp well last nite xD,shall end here.

continue~

Back frm big uncle hse(father side),was bored napping on the chair thr frm noon to evening 4pm sumthing,finally started to bbq after the big rain xD.Fun (;,eat and chat,take some photos...chicken was burned lik charcoal by us -.-".Hahas,went westmall hav a walk after tat,sis buy a shoes for me,thks (;.Went to drink kopi outside westmall and xiao jiu come to drive us home,hahas...shall show out the photos (;

2009-12-02T00:19:00.000+08:00

Today the exam,and oso the last day of sch wif PL0801P.Meet up wif nisha and kyna at abt 9.30am,went straight to tamp,order apple pie frm mac,garlic bread and drumstick frm pizzahut and chicken wings and drumstick frm kfc,then...back to sch,take exam...worried for my result nw,seriously didn't really done well,after exam...kyna rush down to tamp wif some guys and take those orders,nisha and me stay at sch wait for the pizza we order frm canadian to reach,pizza reach..wait for kyna they all come back,then wait for lecturers here,we thks mdm evani for her lecturing these two yrs,and start to eat...then take photos,after seeing one by one classmates left,the feeling of unbear came,bt...it's juz awhile,receive a call frm mum,saying grandma fall down,and went hospital after seeing doctor frm clinic,and so...went to pioneer mall mac find mum,bro,sis and yueling cousin,eat and back home...went grandma hse wait xiaojiu back and bring us go visit ah ma,actually gt to do operation,bt in the end doctor say wait for few wks see hw first,grandma air ticket to shanghai hav been transfer to me,and i really dun wan...bt i can't reject,fcuk...and it's nt foc,why?It's nt i wanna go and is ah ma fall down so transfer to me,why need my mum pay the money for the ticket?I replacing onli eh,wth...fcuking irritating,fcuking human,dad...bring me go,to ur place...peacefully thr rite?I wan live wif u,i dunno wat can i do in tis world lerHx,nth for me to do lerHx.I am tired lerHx.

2009-11-29T12:18:00.003+08:00

It's morning,lol...ytd explored a new place,st.james club.Ytd morning went ya kun and eat breakfast wif mum,bro,sis and xiao yi.After tat went home,bath..changed and bro drive me to meet wif dearest at abt 11am sumthing,then we walk to boon lay mrt station,take train to esther hse,at her hse..we make up and prepared,take bus to orchard to walk...hav kfc lunch,after tat we meet a friend in my tagged,erm...very weird,lol..cos we dunno each others,so after meet lerHx we wan walk to taka bt raining,so tat tagged friend derHx friend gt car,and he drive us thr,at thr walk walk and they went off lerHx,me,dearest and esther went to dhoby,wanna play arcade at plaza sg bt nth to play so we walk to play pool,lol...fun (;.After pool we walk to a shopping nearby awhile and went to eat long john at plaza sg,then train down to harbour front,at vivo shopping centre wait for esther friends come and went to st.james,powerhse.Reach thr,went find esther "bf" and stand thr,around 11 plus bah,it was more and more crowded,then we start to dance,ting nv go,abit sian..left out one,lol...esther was drunk larHx xD,act cute still say nv drunk,LOL =X.Kinda fun bt tiring,it's my first time been to tis place,lol..went off at 5am sumthing,esther friend derHx friend dad drive us home,esther get down first and follow by me and dearest,i went dearest hse slp.Waked at 7-8am sumthing and slp back,10am sumthing get up and my leg suddenly cannot stand sia,scared me..tink is becos ytd dance too much bah,then after awhile jiu okie lerHx,went home after tat,order mac delivery,hahas..and i am eating nw (;.Exam coming in 3 days time,and i am still nt prepared -.-.Picts will be post up soon.

2009-11-22T11:59:00.001+08:00

Yea...update my blog.Ytd suppose to hav outing wif my sisters bt hav to apologize to them as i backout cos of the idiot boss,call and ask me go work for two days.And my money finishing so i agree to it xD.Erm..work at lakeside and afterall is quite okie,as long as i get my pay uh -.-.Still owe me $30,plus these two days he gt to giv me $90...LOL,still nt enough -.-.Bro gonna go shanghai wif uncle they all,dunno he will buy wat for us,hahaha..mum asked me too bt i dun wan,lol..cos mum cannot take off and sis oso,so we cannot go tgt..since then,i tink better nt go,so mum say next time then go,hope it's true uh,everytime say onli,hahas...and the degree is -5 degree,imagine hw cold,lol...scary~rmb go snow city wif sisters last time the degree is 2 degree lik tat,already very freezing.Hm...yea,so tat's all...lata gt to work,tired.

有很多很多丑陋的人类，把世界变得可怕，让人们失去了应有的自由。

2009-11-19T20:08:00.001+08:00

Cold weather nw...and it's raining day,nice weather to slp (;.Bt of cos nt so early,hahas...today reach sch at 10:30am,revision worksheet again,bt i am playing facebook and tagged,LOL..okies,nt onli me xD.Went for lunch break at 11pm sumthing,kyna,nisha and me went bedok to eat,eat prawn mee and oso hav soybean dessert.After tat is abt 1pm sumthing,bus back to sch and sit at staircase waiting for lecturer,bt it rains heavily...so we stand at the corner thr,lol...lecturer came,went in and he giv us ans for the revision paper,then we write down...and he say..."tomoro gt sch,bt study at home"...LOL,get wat he mean?Hahas..and yea,class chalet plan hav been cancel,cos it's nt so convenience for everyone,tat's wat evani say..so change to order food and hav party at sch,actually i prefer outing,mean same order food bt make it at outside nt sch...if nt it's nt fun xD.Bt forget it,leave it for them to decide bah..hahas,msn chat wif esther...bully onli she,write at her blog the "plurk" saying me tis and tat,LOL...kns rite?Hahas...okie,blog till here..byebye (;

2009-11-14T23:40:00.004+08:00

Morning suppose to went wcp wif sisters,bt in the end was cancel..so stayed at home and acc mum make currypuffs (;.LOL..then after tat went to pm giant wif mum and back home.Noon meet wif sisters at abt 3pm sumthing,went to cityhall and go marina gv wanna buy movie tickets for 2012,bt all timing onli left front seats,so we went to suntec engwah and see whether gt anot,and yea...we watch 6.05pm show,went to kfc and eat first,then buy a pair of ripple shoes wif dearest,after tat went inside to watch movie lerHx,the show was well done,LOL..the effect look real,bt..imagine these really gonna happen,it was damn tragedy.Anw..thr is one part of the show look familiar to me,dunno isit i watch some others show tat gt the same situation or wat,lol...so after movie is 9pm,take photos wif sisters and walk walk awhile then train home,esther gt down at je as usual,and ting,dearest and me gt down at pioneer,dearest and me buy bread to eat and ting buy bubble tea.Hm..tat's all bah,nite (;

2009-11-08T20:33:00.002+08:00

Sat bring family out for lunch,treat dian xiao er...cos $100 over sumthing,lol...bt worth it larHx,very full...so we take a walk at jp and went home,reach home...change clothes and meet sisters at abt 5pm at cityhall mrt station,then transfer train to somerset.Reach and went to cineleisure,xing wang...i treat food bt they pay for their own drink,lol...cos i really dun earn much uh xP.After tat we went to walk around orchard and then dhoby...slack,no whr else to go,abt 11pm sumthing,take bus 174 to boon lay mrt station,feel lik vomiting,as i carsick.Lucky reach lerHx...then went dearest hse slack till 3am,walk to pioneer mall mac to meet esther friends...hav some fries and drinks and went to our playground,esther friends oso came along,then we kana scare by insects and cat xD.So we change to the playground which hav swing,play awhile and chat awhile..dearest wanna go home awhile so i acc her,then lata we change back to the 1st playground again,sit thr,chat chat till 6am sumthing and we went dearest hse slp,tired...slp till 9am sumthing bro call me,then waked up lerHx,went home...bath and went jp wif sisters again to hav breakfast+lunch,kfc...LOL,then walk back to dearest hse slack awhile and went home,reach home...surf net awhile and went out,sis treat for dinner,wif xiao jiu and his family,we went the place dad last time always bring us thr,miss thr lots...luckily we get to found it,cost abt $99.Went to westcoast park after dinner,play awhile and went home.Sweet (;

2009-11-02T15:46:00.000+08:00

Easily lik the place which i am adapted to...tat's wat the person tat count my 8 character said,and tat's so true,bt...i guess everyone will lik tat isn't it?When u are adapted to a place for long,hav feeling for the place,feel unbearable is normal for a emotional ppl rite?Bt i dun wish to be so emotional till no limit,LOL.So yea...i hav quit the job as it's quite tiring and i oso dun plan to work for long in the first place,and after i hav told the boss on 26 oct tat i gonna quit on 1st nov,and when i am back to work on 30 nov,i heard the auntie said tis shop gonna change boss lerHx,cos the boss say very little ppl here,so he sell the shop to another boss,well...so on my last day of work which is 1st nov is really a bored one,boss changed and auntie went ntuc fairprice to work lerHx,left me,one cashier friend,one i dun lik derHx person and the new boss lady.New boss didn't picked on me,or shld i say she didn't even talk to me,hahas..dunno why?Bt the one i dun lik say nw change boss lerHx,cannot do tis cannot do tat,i heard liao jiu sian 1/2 liao,starting quite sian,me alone put the bread to the plate,scald myself and i miss the nagging of the auntie saying "careful uh xiao mei,tis one hot uh,dun touch".A simple caring is a great memories..lol,my cashier friend asked me whether i noe in tis shop who is being doted by most ppl?And i dunno then she say her friend guess was me,and i was shocked and happy and really thks for the compliment,hahas.Diff boss diff ways of doing business,so when we do closing was diff too,do wash up at last,last time was wash up first so when closing,juz throw away the lefted one and can went off,bt...ytd was quite diff,anw..was dismissed early,haven 11.30pm and was dismissed.Miss those days,though i cannot go out on sat and sun,will feel sad for tat bt working time dun make me feel bored too,at least thr are sumthing to do,thr are things to learn and most imptly,thr are money to earn (;.Hahas...bt still..shld be happy i am back to freedom,nt tied down by my job (;..hahas...

2009-10-26T00:47:00.004+08:00

Fri

Schling and working all these days,having class test on fri..and i didn't pass xD,so retake...get someone to help and yea..they are pro,help me get full marks bt i retake one so full marks oso no use =x.After sch..trained home,rest and went to work,when i back frm work,hurry rush home to bath and prepared,went out to jp...celebrating the youngest in kcje b'dae,lol..and it is esther..LOL =X,meet wif them and walk to jp tgt,watching movie 'Halloween 2'.Time still early so we walk around fairprice 24hrs to kill time first,we buy ice-cream and went Cheers to buy drinks,while walking,we ate the ice-cream and time is around thr so we went in,the movie over all was really nt entertaining at all xD.movie was abt 1hr30mins show,went in at 1.20am and out at 3am sumthing.Slack at playground as usual and our plan proceeded..lol,me and jolyn went up to get the cakes and stuffs,and jolyn hide around the lift,i went to lure them over to the lift bt i guess my acting sux uh,almost fail to,hahas...then when they run over,we started the b'dae songs,then cut cake and take photos,waiting for ting to send us..lol,then play our game,can say b'dae gal is lucky enough,didn't drop into our trap...after game we chit-chat thr and time was 5am sumthing so we went up to jolyn hse,esther and ting went home awhlie lata and i slp till morning 9am and waked up as bro call me to go home.

Sat

Reached home,eat breakfast and went out,went to mum derHx aunt hse..grandma went along wif us,tiong bahru...reach her hse sit awhile and she bring us to see our PAST AND FUTURE~..woo...interesting uh?Haix...can onli say i am curious abt it bt i rather nt noeing so much,it's for me to explore my future isn't it,nw noeing wat for i am living since i already noe wat my future will be?$60 per person,wasted money -.-.Frm a book and the person name,DOB,TOB can see through a person past and future,then shld i say the person who wrote tis book is a deity?Though i dun wanna admit bt most of the part which says abt our character is really true,dun hav 100% oso hav 99%,tat's wat i can say,bt as for the future,i dun wanna tink anything abt it as things will change,a person as long as done wat u suppose to done and dun do any wicked things i guess tat's enough,after exploring the future,went to eat,wasted 3hrs sumthing on tis things,then after lunch...bro and me cab to tiong bahru mrt station and trained home,change my clothes and went to work,tired bodoh xD

Sun

Today,waked at 11am and didn't realise it's already so late.Bt still nt enough slp and mum waked me up,ask us to go out tgt wif her and xiao jiu they all,so we waked up brush teeth,change clothes and went down,xiao jiu say wanna bring us eat hse of crab at bedok area,bt we reach thr lerHx and realise business hrs started at 4pm-.-,so we went to tampines mall and eat teppanyaki at B1,nt worth xD.After tat went kopitiam to eat dessert and walk walk at Isetan and went mac to eat ice cream,LOL..eat alot...then after tat back home,nap for 30mins and change clothes went to work.So tired,gt sch tmr,gonna slp...nite (;

2009-10-18T15:09:00.001+08:00

Ytd,it's grandma b'dae..went to woodland sakura to hav lunch,nth much diff frm others outlet actually.Then after lunch,sit on 2nd uncle car bt while others uncle went to fac,2nd uncle drive us to pioneer mall,LOL..then bro and 2nd uncle sit on koufu drink coffee,i acc 2 cousin go giant buy things as they wanna make tiramisu,hahas..bt can't find most of the ingredient,after tat uncle drive bro and me home,sis back oso...and mum went uncle hse,she call us to go thr eat cake,so xiao jiu mu come drive us thr,cut cake and slack at ah ma hse,tired...gonna work while seeing ppl can play,dun feel lik gg for work,bt...still went,bro drive me thr,work work work,two cousin came in visit me,lol..then 11.30pm and yea,dismissed xD,the gal tat lik to rush alot hav been sent to lakeside for ytd so it was quite okie afterall,at least ytd quite freedom...after work,back home bath,went to sing midnite K-box wif xiao jiu mu,sis and cousins.$35,ex. bodoh..xiao jiu mu treat,lol...thks alot xD.A waiter thr was cute,hahas..sing till 4am and back home slp.Finally waked at 11am tis morning,went jp wif bro and sis,sis treat Ambush,guess spell correct?Hahas..bro treat starbuck,lol..mum went out wif uncle.Okie...shall work again lata,sian uh.Feel lik to stop work lerHx,cos i gt many things cannot do when working,so shall earn some saving and continue my studies first till next holiday?Shld be..hahas,test test test and exam,argh...dunno can pass anot -.-,okie...shall stop here (;

Pls...behave lik an adults if u wanna earn some respect frm the young ones.
If nt,dun blame others for looking u down before u look down on us.
Seriously..i dunno hw ur childs tink bt i pity them having such a person lik u at home.

2009-10-11T12:03:00.001+08:00

Staying at home myself on fri till evening when bro and sis are back frm work,mum went malaysia to attend her niece wedding.And yea..she will be coming back on sun nite.Fri nite sisters come my hse,thks for coming and acc me (;.Having fun and chatted lots.Sat morning went to hav breakfast at jp wif bro and sis,ate alot,we went to hav jap ramen set meal,went ji de chi to hav dessert and was very full xD.Treat by bro and sis..LOL.Went to work at 5.30pm,sux to core,do tis and tat...dearest went to find me,thks (;.hahas,bro and sis come to fetch me home too,and before went home,went 651 coffee shop to hav dian xin first,thks too..=P.Hm..i dunno is i nt suitable for working or nt suitable for tis job onli xD,bt quite afraid of tis job,it's still the starting and i am yearning to quit,bt i dun wanna giv up so fast..at least 1 mth after get my pay...hahas..bt wondering maybe haven 1 mth i nv quit bt get fired,cos so far still okie,wat i scare is being the cashier cos hav to rmb the price.Sian uh.Been watching a taiwan drama,lik tis show though it's nt a new show lerHx,tis show is Mars,learn sumthing frm tis show,and thr is sumthing really diff frm tis show compare to others show.Today morning went to jp hav breakfast again,sis and me treat,subway..full,gotta work today too =(.Buck up (;

2009-09-28T10:03:00.001+08:00

Sat went out wif sisters,actually we wanna plan a fun plan and go out play,bt really can't tink of any places we can enjoy playing,so we decide to meet at 2pm then went to shop...wear a long sleeves and meet ting and dearest and they wear no sleeves shirt,i wanna change to no sleeves too so they acc me went home change xD,lol...change lerHx feel relax lerHx,esther waited for too long so she came pioneer station,then we meet lerHx and headed to cityhall.Shopping thr and realise gt F1 races event,alot ppls...then abt 4pm sumthing we train to novena,went chin huat live seafood for steamboat,each person abt $25/-,include free flow of drinks,as for too greedy,we take alot chicken and can't finish..LOL,so too bad cannot eat others food cos very full after finishing the chicken,went velo city shop awhile and alot of shop is closing,so we decide to went IMM giant,saw the tv playing shin chan,then a ads thr written tat the manga artist "Yoshihito Usui" tat is the creator of Crayon Shin Chan,dead body was found on 20 sep,he was 51 yrs old,went missing on 11 sep after going on a climb on the mountain. He never returned home.It was a pity tat a talented person lik him was dead and we can nv saw new and interesting crayon shin chan lerHx,after standing thr watch awhile and we went shop shop,and saw dearest family,after tat it was late,so we trained home..next day waked at 6am sumthing,bath and went grandma hse,waited for them to get ready and we went pontian,reach aunt hse sitted awhile and went for bak gu teh,after tat went shopping,buy alot thingy and went to hav chendol..nice (;,after tat went shopping again and eat wanton mee,back to aunt hse,tired...slp awhile and backed to sg,eat cup noodles when reached home,LOL...been eating alot,full xD.Juz nw went jp,eat pizzahut,mum treat...then trained home.Upload photos next time,tired..lol

2009-09-19T21:07:00.010+08:00

Went to aunt doris hse today wif mum,bro and sis.Long time didn't went visit her hse,almost 1 and the half yr,since dad passed away?Take train at abt 9am sumthing,get down at bedok and take bus to parkway parade,i dunno whr isit so bro bring us thr,bt...he bring us get down at the wrong bus station,so we walk back,take the same bus again...on the bus,jx called me..told him i was outside so he didn't wanna disturb and hang the phone,reach aunt doris hse,and the cat in her hse grow bigger,LOL..rmb 1 yr ago,dad drive lorry bring us thr,the cat was onli a small one,and keep getting close dad,smell dad..hahas,anw...today went gt 2 cats,hahas...so hav lunch and dinner thr,hav a nap thr and take some photos thr.Grandma was thr too...she was abit unconsious wif wat she is saying or doing lerHx bah..bt glad she still rmb us (;.Hm...she missed dad too,been crying everytime when she saw us,cos we remind her of dad bah?I guess so..bt we missed dad too,no choice..it's nt for us to decide a person life and death,waiting for the day we reconcile?Dunno when will it be,longer the better or shorter the better?LOL =X

2009-09-15T21:41:00.001+08:00

Didn't went sch today,cos today commemorate dad lefted us 1 yr,as tis yr chinese date gt 2 repeated mth,so last mth and tis mth we oso consider is dad 1 yr,waked up at 7.30am lik tis,then waked mum up...helped mum to fried abit of foods then take out foods and serve to dad,went down with mum,bro and sis at around 10am sumthing to burn incense paper,hse,car,clothes,shoes all tis to dad...i really hope he will get it,it's already one yr.Watever we burned to him,without less i really hope he already gets everything.Nth can prove tat he really gt come back,wat we can do is tink,tink he really did come back,mths ago went malaysia to ask the person help us to ask my dad soul come up,and till nw i still dun get whether the one is true anot,bt if it's true,dad..u did say after ur one yr u will be able to let us drm of u,stay by our side,hope will come true,and we really miss u.Noon...went pioneer mall,sis treat mac,and after mac,went home...surf net whole day,tired xD,posting pict...u can saw a butterfly,and went kris 2 take a look..the butterfly is cracked frm the caterpillar pict frm kris 2. (;

2009-09-12T10:23:00.000+08:00

Yea..weekend again,guess nt gg out today?Hm...was so tired,ytd lesson end early,went at 8am and end at 10am as we hav done our work so dismiss early.Went jp to buy movie ticket after sch,blood ties.Watching wif mum,bro,sis and sis friend at nite 11pm,so went home hav a nap at 3 sumthing to 5 sumthing and waked up,bath and sis was back home frm work,so meet bro and sis friend at somerset sakura,sis treat..cos she hav her first salary,hahas..bt the foods thr wasn't tat nice,to me i prefer je science centre thr derHx ba,LOL.Then hav a walk at OG and ask mum buy wallet for me =x,bt didn't saw a nice one,so didn't buy anything,walk to dhoby at 9pm plus,and reach boon lay at 10pm plus and went in to cinemas at 11pm and idiot,the person onli wan check my ic -.-,lol..then went in,the show was...okok larHx,hahas...the sound effect was loud,feel so cold inside the cinemas,and after movie was 1am,sis friend cab home and mum,bro,sis and me walk home,as we still feel very full..hahas,so tat's all (;

2009-09-03T20:18:00.002+08:00

Today,first time having class outing in college east.Meet wif kyna and nisha at boon lay and trained to simei,went ntuc buy drinks and pack kfc,walk to sch...reached sch,sit at tech blk and wait for lecturers,alot ppls frm diff course gg too..bus came,sit on bus and headed to pasir laba army camp,reach lerHx,taken photos..and start walking,alot army ppls and diff sch ppls,watch performance thr,see them parachute and playing band,nice..LOL,and oso gt dog show,hahas...then cancel alot events cos many ppls did nt follow their schedule and mixed up,very warm and hot weather.Jump straight to last event,went to see the 3 generation of army,and see hw heavy stuff they carry when they was training,and it was indeed heavy xD..hahas,stay thr till 4pm sumthing then can went off,our bus drive students back to sch,so me,kyna,nisha and some classmates take shuttle bus tat drive us to boon lay and frm thr,i walk home,saw Ms Ng..sec sch teacher,chat wif her awhile and went off,reached home,rest awhile and carry baby went grandma hse wif mum for dinner,cos today pray ah gong for 7th mth stuff,after dinner,nap at thr awhile as was very tired and after tat,bro and sis came frm work and after their dinner,we walk back home.Will be posting photos when my friend send it to me,today was quite fun (;,bt tomoro might nt be gg to sch.

2009-08-31T09:51:00.002+08:00

Didn't went sch today,super tired can?Ytd nite didn't slp well,cos of rashes xD.Was wanting to update my blog,bt blogger is having prob last few days?Hm..finally fyp is over,starting wif new subject tis term,hope it will be alrite for me.Sat went to uncle factory for praying the 7th month stuff,until 5pm sumthing and back home,meeting wif sisters...meet wif dearest babe first and we trained down to cityhall,waited for ting and esther,bt they was damn slow,lol...cos they walk frm town to city,so me and dearest went kfc and wait for them,wan a regular drink bt dearest go and order a medium one for me,hahas...then nvm,after ting and esther came,chatted awhile and went to shop,went arcade..K,J VS C,E..hahas,bt we lost -.-,chui...then treated them starbuck?And went off,reach home 12am xD.Sun...went out wif mum and uncle in the noon,uncle treat sakura restaurant at science centre thr and after tat went IMM,went to upgrade my phone plan..LOL.Then went westmall,cos mum changing a phone same as mine for a malaysia cousin and after tat,went kfc find uncle they all.And back to grandma hse,hav a nap on the massage chair..hahas,and walk back home.Chatting on msn wif esther and she is sad,so she trained down to boon lay,i meet wif dearest and went jp,meet esther at jp and slack at dearest hse staircase,ting come down at around 10pm sumthing,chatted thr and slack till reaching 11pm.

lol..wat will be happening?-.-

2009-08-21T18:48:00.000+08:00

Wat i gonna do?I can onli sit thr and see my marks taken away by them and do nth,can i pass my fyp?Those things i done u all dun wan,ask me do tis do tat,do all the nt impt and useless things,then nw blame me for nt doing any coding,even the onli coding i did u all dun wanna count inside,i dun hav evidence,can onli keep quiet,u all are keep adding things u hav done and minusing things i hav done,wth?E.g. the project need to spell "apple",i hav spelled out "appl" and u all snatch to do and add in a "e" and write tat it is done by u and me,it's nt fair,bt i can't say anything,juz hope i can grad faster,i dun wan to see u guys again.Out of my life -.-

2009-08-11T21:17:00.001+08:00

Tues

Went to sch,as usual doing same stuff...then today go late for lunch break as was doing things and time was being dragged,after lunch break was so boring...and finally sw lesson,was so tired to go,bt still went...run for 2.4km -.-,i actually dun wan run derHx,bt no choice,at least nw run and it's over,i onli run 5 rounds while my friends run 6 xD,then they dun wan help me so i admit myself when teacher ask (;,hahas..so teacher still let me pass,hahas...pheww...and went home,reach home eat dinner and use com,was happily watching my show bt my idiot jie totally spoil my mood,whr gt ppl charging phone and haven full u go take out and charge ur own phone derHx?Idiot,and somemore i ask properly my phone full already not,she nv ans me still giv idiotic face,damn..and becos of her i was being blame by mum again,again...it's my fault,throw my temper and shouted at mum saying "yah larHx,my fault again",i was sorry for shouting at u bt it's NT my fault,i done nth wrong,i charge my phone using my charger,can't she use hers since i am using mine?She go take her charger and charge lerHx bt she go plug out my charger leh,then her charger hit my ear leh,u nv scold her and say i am the one who is finding problem?Hurt my hand once again,bt nt so hard,abit swollen nw,i dunno why i do tat again...i am very very sad juz nw.

Mon

Today was a public holiday (;,jie went out in the morning wif her friend,mum,kor and me went jp for kfc after we hav discuss wat to eat for so long,then walk walk at the jp,mum buy a shirt for sis so i oso pick one xP,hahas..then i wanna eat dessert,wanna treat derHx bt they dun accept cash card so no choice,hahas..bro treat in the end =x,continue walk walk,buy a hse phone tat mum want to buy very long lerHx,uncle call mum and say he coming jp find us,so walk and walk awhile more and uncle drive us home,reach home..discover the phone gt prob,at nite went out wif uncle for dinner at sheng siong thr and waited for the food to serve very long and uncle drive us to jp and he and his family went home first,we went to change the phone and walk home frm jp cos i nv bring ezlink,hahas =x

Sun

It's National Day and oso my two cousin b'dae celebration,they ordered buffet and celebration at their hse...invited their friends and us,went thr at abt 12pm sumthing...eat and sitted thr do nth,hav been waiting for my dearest babe to giv me gd news say she can meet me lerHx bt she was so slow xD,cut cake time...jie big leg step on the chair tat was abt to broke already and still step by her big leg and it was broke,then she injured her leg,pict will be posted up lata (;.Taken some photos and went home at 8pm sumthing,meet wif dearest babe(finally xD) and we sit at playground chatted,babe msg jun xian and asked him come find us,and he really came,lol...dunno wat to talk to him bt babe was trying to make us talk,thks to her bt next time dun lik tat,talk tgt (;.Crystal wanna catch the movie wif her baby at 11pm,she came find us at abt 10pm?And we went to play swing,bt he left lerHx,11pm and we went home.

2009-08-04T19:48:00.004+08:00

Today..seriously,it's nt my day -.-,morning i almost forget to bring my phone to sch,then went back to take,saw mum taking my phone standing outside looking for me,then take my phone and went down,mum call..i forget bring my sw shirt -.-,ass..then nvm,reach sch...project suppose can be done by today bt becos of one member,sick?Dunno real anot bt okie,anw..she hav mc then consider she really sick,bt without the web application tat is in her hand,we cannot done our project and cannot continue many things,and the idiot lecturer tat i seriously dunno hw can she be one?Keep asking us to do,we already explain without tat things we cannot continue,and today whole day was juz doing the powerpoint for tis thurs small presentation,after sch..was abt to step out of sch then Mr Raymond(sect head) call kyna to find him,so me,nisha and kyna went up,talk talk and talk,and i was lik...when can dismiss??=.= Raymond keep asking me 'rite,rite,rite'...maybe he noe tat i am nt concentrating on his speech xD,haix..after awhile our idiot lecturer came,then talk again,frm wat i see...prob is nt solved yet lo,it's juz being said out and tat's all,wa lau...i noe u bias,dun need show out so obvious,saying we nv do things?Did u open up ur eyes big?Do u mean every single things we done oso muz let u noe?Went toilet need to ask u along too?Wth..wat i last time very gd gt do,nw abit slow down becos "someone" influence me?Obviously ur "someone" is pointing who leh,i hav my own eyes and brain,i noe hw to see and hw to tink,u as a lecturer go and quarrel and coldwar wif a student,u tink very proud meh?I dun care wat u say and wat u do as long as tat dun influence my marks,i hav been tolerating tis term,and enough is enough.Why dun u dare to talk to me when kyna or nisha is around?Juz becos i dare nt talk back to u?Keeping silent doesn't mean i agree wif u.I talk to u ytd abt why are we lacking and u hav so many reason tat doesn't match wif the word "LOGIC",wat u mean we dun hav to noe wat 'she' is doing,we juz hav to do our own part?Juz a reminder tat tis is a GRP WORK!U gt bias anot u shld noe uh,and i dun wanna say anything anymore.After tis,me and nisha went out of office first..cos tat idiot lecturer wanna talk wif kyna,then left raymond,idiot lecturer and kyna...waited thr for quite long,till 4.15pm and i really need to went off so went off first..family having some prob,dun wanna say out here,and it was indeed irritating larHx,haix...sian uh =/

2009-07-28T22:19:00.001+08:00

Blog again..haix,today went to sch wif my sickness...feeling better nw bt still having flu and some coughing,at sch nth much,same thing..play games,bt i dun really wanna play game juz thr's really nth needed for me to do,i hav done quite alot lerHx -.-,idiotic...if really hav nth much for us to do,can't u juz let us relax?After sch,my friend and lecturer quarrel,seriously...being a lecturer yet ur students noe more than u,who u gonna blame?Then went home..surf net,and a guy frm tagged ask me to be his gf?Lame...u are serious bt we doesn't suit okie?U are juz a net friend to me..-.-,bt another one better,at least chat wif him make me feel happy...and oso chat wif him quite sometime...he is quite funny..bt,reply super slow nw -.-,haix..anw,i am so sian nw...tomoro gonna do many things,wat to do?I dun lik schling more and more,especially wif u tis lecturer around,let me feel more tired gg sch.

2009-07-25T20:03:00.006+08:00

I am so tired xD,bt still will be blogging abt ytd interesting things..it's my babe jolyn b'dae (;.We planned to celebrate for her at west coast park so we went thr for camping,after sch..i slp awhile at home and waked up to bath and prepared,meet esther at 5pm,i was late awhlie tis time round,wahaha xD.Then we went to buy the cake,and some needed stuff then went esther hse,esther show me the tent and i was tinking hw to build tis thing..LOL,then we went out and headed to west coast park,in the bus,we chatted alot abt our own stuff..then me and esther reach lerHx,we find for the place and see which place gd and we start to build the tent,and we didn't took long to build the tent bt something giv us prob,the rubber inside the stick all came out and broken,me and esther was lik wth xD,bt luckily in the end we successfully solved tis prob,hahas..and sitted inside and wait for ting to bring liling come and giv liling a surprise,actually plan to make her go inside tent and i bring cake in bt..outside wind too strong and the candles cannot light up so change to i stay inside the tent and wait for liling to open tent then i take the cake out,overall was fun until somebody came and sumthing happened..it was abt 11pm-2am sumthing i guess,and we was lik all cooling down awhile and in the end was fine,me and liling went to sit at the stone and admire the sea and it makes me feel really stressless,feeling was great,then after those ppl went home and another somebody came,then we went to play the playground thr tgt,was fun (;..okie..then the time was abt 3-4am sumthing,we went to mac to wash up and went back tent,all of us was tired,went another somebody went home,abt 5am we slp for abt 1hr sumthing and waked up,onli esther was awake and didn't catch a nap,abit drizzling,then we sit in the tent for awhile and we packed up and went mac for breakfast,at the mac,we chatted alots of stuff,those memorable memories,onli for four of us and onli us will noe hw clumsy we are tat time..hahas,and time passes quite fast,still we hav to get up and went home,so we take bus to batok and ting,liling and me trained home,bt before tat..we went westmall to shop awhile.Then i reached home,i slp for abt an hr and went westmall wif family again,bro treat swensen,lol..thks (;.Then walk awhile and home again,and i frm thr slp till 6pm sumthing and waked up..so so so tired xD

2009-07-17T13:49:00.000+08:00

Yea..fri again xD.Ytd nite went to visit cousin,her op was successful,she nw still in icu..and tis morning went sch,my gosh...all the way playing game,lucky gt those game to play if nt i will be kill by boredom.Bt..noe wat?Nwsaday,crazy ppl alot,especially ppl who lik to find trouble,one eg is at one of my sis blog,tat hum ji idiot and another one is today,when me and my friend was sitting in the train and a childish idiot gal frm tanglin sch standing beside my friend seat and keep looking at my friend while she was slping,and i stare back at her,she said "ite gals are lik tis",wtf?Then i stare at her for very long she wan look dun wan look,lame larHx,ma de..grow up okie xD,better becareful,dun let me see u again.Idiotic fellow.Alrite,shall blog till here,i am tired,bye (;

2009-07-04T19:26:00.001+08:00

One more day sch will be reopen,time to study again..tomoro gg to malaysia wif mum,bro,sis and uncle family to visit my relatives in malaysia.Hm..dunno wat to blog,been playing facebook restaurant and pet wif sis,comparing wif each others,LOL..if can really open one business in real life,then will be great.Hahas =x,daydreaming again xD Shall blog till here..byebye.

2009-06-21T17:11:00.003+08:00

Hello peep!I'm back (;.Went to taiwan last week and juz back to sg ytd.It's a memorable journey.And tis 18 yrs..it is the first time i went oversea,alot of experiences and knowledge hav been learned frm thr.It gonna be a long post so be prepared xD.

First day
Waked up at abt 4am sumthing and prepared..went to changi airport terminal 3 to hav breakfast and went into aeroplane at 8am sumthing.And inside the plane waiting for it to fly..sumthing interesting happened..a steward at the plane accident pour a cup of orange juice over my mum and my mum as lik WOW..and he kept apologize to mum and mum say nvm.sis oso kana abit of orange juice cos she was behind mum.And they gave a US$50 voucher to mum as their sincerely apologize.Seriously i feel the steward are cute and nice.Hahas..cos i sit beside mum and until we reached taiwan,he still keep apologize to mum (;.Finally,we reach taiwan at 1pm sumthing.And meet our tourist.And the journey start.The first thing i bought in taiwan is a hotdog bread frm 7/11 thr.LOL..we went taipei by taiwan high speed rail.And we take the bus to XiMenDing.We eat alots of thing at thr include a long ice-cream..hahas.And went Keelung Miaokou night market at night and we went Howard Beach Resort pacific green bay hotel to check-in and explore the hotel with bro,bro friend,cousin and sis at night.

Second day

Waked at 6am,hav breakfast and wait for the bus.Get up the bus and went ChiuFen..place tat film the "City of Sadness".After tat to YiLan National Center for Traditional art.Sell quite lot of thing bt no time to buy..lol.And we take train to hualien then as for rain and bus spoil tat drag our time,Nanbin night market is cancel.So we went to check-in at Parkview hotel.

Third day

Same as second day we waked up at 6am and had our breakfast then bring luggage down and went in the bus..to taroko gorge and look at the nice scenery.After tat proceed to Ling centre and listen to them abt lingzhi thingy and after tat stick at us and pursue us to buy and lol..we run away lik hell =x.Then next to taitung..stay at Hot Spring Resort.A scary resort xD,so many ppl bt onli me and sis room gt insect..so i dun lik tis place..LOL,night..xiao jiu family and my family went to sing karaoke..NT$10 per song..

Fourth day

After our breakfast,continue our journey to Hengchun Cape No.7 "Aga's Home",West Gate" and "Mao Bo's house" buy some necklace and bracelet,then saw the sail rock while on the bus gg to Howard Beach Resort at kenting.I love tis place (;

Fifth day

As usual,after putting our luggage on the lobby and went to hav breakfast,we proceed the next places..kaohsiung,suppose to climb up the mountain to visit "Fo Guang Shan Monastery" bt as to take care of grandma and small cousin,me and sis went to play arcade at thr and grandma sit at the chair,onli uncle,aunt and their two kid,mum and bro wif other tour ppl went up.After tat they were all sweaty..hahas,then went to dream mall,nth much..next went to see the Love river and Kaohsiung 85 tower,the view was nice bt taken by photo can't get to see the real nice view..Went to LiuHo Night market at night,quarrel wif bro and sis cos they bully me =X,hahas..bt after tat went to Howard Plaza Hotel at Kaohsiung then ok lerHx..went to swimming xP.

Sixth day

It's the sixth day,feeling abit down cos everything gonna end soon,bt still enjoying the journey,went to Sun Moon Lake at first,introducing the honey to us and we bought some.After tat had our lunch a place nearby Wen Wu temple and was having a shock cos thought the camera was lost,luckily found back after then..LOL,then went in Wen Wu temple,the place kana earthquake before long time ago...then thr were pictures of the earthquake too.And after tat we proceed to Formosan Aboriginal Cultural Village,a multifaceted theme park.It was a very FUN place (;...we play many ride thr and have alot of fun,and night..we went to Feng Jia Night Market at Taichung to shop and buy alots alots of things wif sis..shop till 1am sumthing wif bro,bro friend and sis then take taxi to hotel we stay,Howard Prince Hotel

Seventh day

The last second day we gonna leave taiwan,breakfast at hotel and headed to taoyuan,went taipei 101 World building,a high building indeed.Hav our lunch at thr,and was okok actually..lol,then went hotel to put our luggage and went shihlin night market at night.Nth much to shop,went back hotel and swimming again,bt onli awhile cos closing,went to XiMenDing wif mum,sis,uncle and aunt.Buy things cos last night lerHx...then eat KFC,and taxi back to hotel..slp.

Eighth day

Hmm..the last day already,the taiwan tourist nt wif us lerHx..morning waked up later than before,8am...bath and went to hav breakfast,then went 101 building and shop,all brand stuff,buy alot chocolate and sweet.Then shop till 3pm,went back hotel and the bus drive us to airport.Reach airport wait until 5pm sumthing and we went in,reach sg at 11pm sumthing.Nv see the same steward lerHx xD.

Yea..so tis is some parts and some picts of my 13 june - 20 june taiwan journey (;

Here are pict of us and our tourist and some ppl in tour.My comment is,although taiwan five stars hotel cannot be compare wif sg five stars hotel bt their services and manner sure can be compare wif sg.

Thks for reading,the end (;

2009-05-28T21:38:00.000+08:00

Exam is coming real soon..getting nearer and nearer,bt i juz hav a very bad habit,tat is nt study until the last mins,i am sure tis attitude will get me into trouble.I will try to change,change back to the one tat will study when she is having impt exams.I hav done ifa project and everything shld be done in sch..so today dun hav to go to sch,thought tomoro hav to go bt juz receive a msg tat tomoro lesson cancel,great uh?Bt i dun feel at all xD,dunno why..gt sch say tired,no sch say boring.Tat's human isn't it?LOL...i drmt of dad last nite,since hav nth to blog,i shall share abt wat i drmt last nite.Dad was lying on the bed,in my drm i noe he was dead,waiting for him to revive back instead of putting him in coffin and do all those stuff,finally...his eyes move,he is awake,bt he dun rmb us,mum said..10 yrs already,maybe he forget us...then i hold dad arm..shake him and say..dad,it's us..i am yiling,u are my dad,u rmb?Then he look at me and he seem to rmb,then i started tink,10 yrs lerHx meh?Then wat is my age lerHx,lol..and after tat i dunno wat i drmt lerHx,hahas..lik drama yah?I feel tat too,i guess i hav tink too much =x.Dad..whr are u nw?Is everything smooth?Is the malaysia thing true?I miss ur nagging,miss u say thks for ur kpo when u ask me to take thing for u.Do u rmb..today is mum and ur 23th wedding anniversary.Dad,mum..Happy Anniversary.

2009-05-13T22:41:00.003+08:00

Another new day over,sch having many many things to do,nwf sch test,nwf class test,nwf phase test,ifa project,etp project,pm project and the coming up exam...though onli one paper bt tis one paper is taking half of my life -.-.And oso becos i didn't pass the nwf sch and class test,so will take the retest tis coming tues and wed,teacher specially arrange for ppl who did nt pass xD,haix...june holiday coming,tinking relaxing day is coming,actually nw the stress i am having is onli small cake eh o.o,after june i tink shld be more worst...cos gt more thing to do lik final yr project etc.,as i am last yr in ite,nt sure wat my life would be after tis yr bt hope it will be better =x,i am so tired leh xD,though i am having enough slp bt still will tired..can i take escalator to success instead of stair?Cos i am really lazy =X

Suddenly feel tat i shld thks u for letting me fall for u,
cos becos of u,i hav learn tat love is nt really tat impt,
doesn't really worth for human to sacrify so much for tat,
i hav seen too many examples,if i could really hav the ability,
i would rather tis word dun come into my dictionary.

2009-05-09T22:32:00.002+08:00

Firstly,gonna wish the whole world Happy Vesak Day and every mother Happy Mother's Day!Morning went pioneer mall wif mum,after tat went home,then mum went out wif uncle,and i take food home for bro and sis..stay at home surf net,watch tv and abt noon 2pm sumthing,went pioneer mall wif sis to take the Mother's day cake sis bought for mum,and keep in fridge,evening went uncle hse,mum at thr oso...then hav steamboat,nite went back home,mum bathing then sis and me faster take the cake out intend to giv mum surprise,aunt at our hse too...then i giv mum a face mask at first,after cake is taking out then i take the real present tat i specially bought for mum wks ago and giv it to her,hope she lik it.Posting up pict(;.

2009-04-27T21:50:00.001+08:00

Morning was lazy to waked up..bt still waked up in the end as i hav to go sch.Then meet my friend..in the end onli me and another friend both of us gg for sch -.-.Then reach sch..do the undone project..onli left wif the chain for the bridge and yea..i hav done it,then we pass up the project and we went cafe 1 to eat..after tat was very tired so nv went for class..haix -.-,was nt in the mood at all.Anw..posting up my project pict.Enjoy.

Wth..dun act smart okie.

Dun tink i will giv a damn to ppl lik u.

Idiot,pls stop acting "drama" infront of me,juz make my feel irritating.

Bt i hav no choice bt to entertain u =/

2009-04-21T20:04:00.001+08:00

Sunday waked at morning 4am and prepared to go malaysia to do sumthing really impt if it's true,and after came back,i really still can't confirm tis ans,maybe wait bah,time can giv me the ans,if it's true...i will noe it one day,or if die lerHx oso can noe it..hahas,noe more clear tat time =X,life is destined,tat's wat can be said nw..for wanna noe more clear,can go my jie blog,navigation beside,click on clare and read the post 19 apr,hahas...cos i am lazy to blog much,anw..posting some interesting pict (;

2009-04-11T19:42:00.003+08:00

Firstly,gotta thks my family for giving me a happy birthday...treat me subway for breakfast+lunch at westmall,and k-box to celebrate my b'dae at marina square,they bought cake for me too (;.Happy singing,LOL..and secondly..thks for ppls tat wish me happy b'dae,lata uncle bringing me swensen for dinner,nt gonna post much,posting photos out xD

2009-04-10T20:53:00.001+08:00

Today is bro b'dae,noon mum went out wif uncle,me and sis planned to went jp decorate the cake at breadtalk for bro,to giv him a surprise,bt then bro insist follow us thr..in the end he find out,well..no choice,he treat us eat mac then we decor the cake and went swensen bro hav coffee,we hav free b'dae ice-cream,lol..then back home,reach home..we watch the show,zero to hero,frm mio tv and keep on watching till mum back we still watch,then uncle call,we went sakura to hav dinner,cos bro b'dae so uncle treat,then eat lerHx,reach home...cut cake lerHx,and giv present to bro,dunno he lik anot leh,but we did our best =x.Oh ya..tat's time sis b'dae i forget to blog abt it,during sis b'dae,me and mum morning went pioneer mall to buy a cake,and we went home,sis didn't notice,till nite..bro treat eat swensen,and reach home we take out the cake frm kitchen and sing b'dae song,she touch sia,then cry...LOL,and giv present to her,btw...thks sis friend ben for giving bro,sis and me present,tat's all...byebye (;