Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Haiz..after appealing for so so so many rounds..i decide to stay in ICT=.=,sianz..two yrs eh=(,staying in the course i dun lik for two yrs,sadded T.T,hm..forget it,today was so tired,after sch when dhoby play pool and take red line mrt back to boon lay,haiz..my life is ruined by myself for the wrong choices=.=,i begin to hate myself..alot of things i shldn't do,bt lack of self control,erm..nt bad things la,is lik eg.i was nt in a mood and someone make me angry,i shldn't be angry bt i am angry=.=,argh...sianz..tomoro to 6pm=.=




I am tired and lazy to carry on everything nw...
11:25 AM


Saturday, January 12, 2008
I guess tis post will be long,as i hav too much to say xD,i am in simei ite campus nw,nt longer the sec student..shld learn to grown and independent,dunno wat my stupid mind was tinking,i juz can't let go the past.remember the first day i go to tis campus,when i found tat me and my friend class was different,i was totally disappointed,i dunno wat to do,i am frighten,i wish sumone i knew could be by my side,i feel so blank,all my mind was tinking is run away,bt i noe,i can't..so i juz wait and wait for the time to pass,while waiting..walking along a big campus wif the strangers,no friend,no mood to carry on at all,i didn't bother to listen wat teacher talk and my tear drop out by itself a few times on the day,finally it was time to go home,meet my friend and i told her i very scare and i can't take it anymore,i cry out...the feeling wasn't gd,i dunno wat to do to stablize my feeling at the point of time,the second day,morning..i was tinking nt to go sch,and i noe i shldn't,i wake up..change uniform and sit at living rm,crying again,i wish tat sumone will come and talk to me,tell me wat to do is rite..no one,when it was abt time,i go out and walking to meet my friend,i am still sobbing on the way,dad call me,say mum was finding me,cos i forget to get money frm them,then i saw mum running toward me,giving me the money,i burst out my tears,mum noe i cried,she didn't say anything,juz ask me dun tink too much,bt after a week of sch,i realise i get more adapted to it le,i mean the sch and class,i dun lik the course,so i reappeal for other course le bt nt at simei le,was waiting for ans,nt sure can anot..i dunno was it rite anot,bt i started to lik tis class le,and tis sch,hw?wat shld i do?i saw a poster at my campus today,selling $2.45,i brought it,the words was meaningful..it was written lik tis "Each day is precious and so full of wonderful possibilities,do not waste ur day by worrying about ur problems,leave all ur worries behind, instead,fill ur life wif peaceful and serenity,enjoy the simple pleasures in tis complex world,happiness lies within u" and i start to tink,yea..i shldn't be so emo,remember when i was in sec sch,one day,during my math lesson,my file papers being mixed up and everyone has pass up except me,i was so frustrated,and i cry,my teacher noe it,when the lessons end,teacher ask me out,he told me cannot be so emotion..i dun get wat he mean,and nw i get it..i will try..my life,my choice,i will responsible for it...




I am tired and lazy to carry on everything nw...
3:28 PM