Sunday, October 16, 2011
Uhhhh...i am sick.Sore throat,flu,headache,and..tired.Life's full of obstacles.LOL.Actually,i dunno wat to blog abt,bt juz feel lik to post something.Talk abt my job bah,hm...dunno wat am i busy abt,bt juz feeling so busy everyday,and when somebody is trying to help and ask wat help we need,we actually tink tat we can manage,so why are we always feeling so busy?And we are really busy,is lik 24 hrs a day is nt enough.Hav been working frm mon-sat these 4 mths,and it seems to be a habit nw.I am really afraid of changes,bt...without changes,things wun improve.Well..are we getting better nw?Are we really?I am afraid when they wanna hand sumthing over to me and wan me to handle,then i will start to tink,shld i and why muz i?See uh..if ppl ask u to do sumthing,u juz do and wun argue,ppl will take advantage of u,it will seems lik u are stupid and easy to be use by others.Bt,if ppl ask you to do sumthing,u will argue,u will nt let them take advantages of u,it dun seems very gd oso.So sometimes,i really dunno wat to do and shld put myself in wat kind of position..follow my heart?Yea...but,my heart didn't told me wat to do.Wah...i realise i dun understand myself,and i dunno myself at all.Wat kind of person am i?Am i a gd or bad person?Or thr is actually no gd or bad,to tis portion of ppl,i may be gd,to tat portion of ppl,i may be bad.Rmb tat time i blog abt my boss may wan to send me oversea for training,until nw..thr is still no news of it,i guess it has been called off,as tat period of time,WH is in a mess,so shld be over lerHx bah,walau eh...then why muz he tell me -.-,make me feel excited awhile..LOL -.-. I hav a very confusing heart and mind nw,i keep on tinking of many things,many many things,and i hav a very selfish thought,i wan sumthing happen to me,then let me coma for a period of time,after i waked up,i hope all the useless memory can be deleted.I only wan to rmb my family and things tat are useful.So..i dun hav to be so tired.And...the first memory i would wan to make sure it will be deleted,is u...the one who occupied my heart,my mind for almost 10 yrs.It's enough.I dunno why i juz can't get rid of u,i juz can't.I muz hav owe u something in my previous life,i muz hav.If nt,why so many ppls in the world,bt juz u..so hard to let go.




I am tired and lazy to carry on everything nw...
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