Monday, September 29, 2008
Nw quite near to sch reopen lerHx,really hope tat holiday can be longer,though most of the time is spended at home and slack bt..it's better than slack at sch,still hav a project undone,cos i am nt sure wat to be done and dun hav the interest to go and do it,went to tiong bahru again today,mum said...if dad is around tat will be great,then we can ask him to bring us thr,yea..if dad is around,bt..he is no longer around?Another world,hw is it look lik?The same as mortal world?Dunno..home dun hav dad is so quiet,and no fun..watching dvd will make me laugh,bt after watching still..haix,abt 1 mth lerHx bah?Sometimes will imagine dad is around bt until nite still nv saw him will start to tink,lik sat nite..dunno why,suddenly..temper become very bad,frustrated easily and when bro,sis was at living rm watching tv,mum and me was at the rm gg to slp,i miss dad alot,i feel lik i am very idiot,started to cry,wanna bang the wall bt it juz so stupid,mum asked me wat happen bt i juz ignore and fall aslp,next morning juz pretend nth happen,and yea..at tis time say anything oso no use lerHx,i hate it when i heard ppl saying "if yrs ago,ur dad listen to me,tis things wun happen",oh pls..i am very sure if dad noe tis would happen,he will listen even if he doesn't wan to,bt who noe tat tis things will happen?Nobody,if i noe tis thing will happen,i wun argue with dad tat nite abt sumthing he told me,i wun slp so early,i will say to him "dad,we love u" until he tink tat i am very fan,i will nv let him take the dumb-bell,till nw,still dunno why he will sudden fall,isit becos the dumb-bell too heavy?Tat nite,he take the dumb-bell to exercise his hand,cos he can't take up his hand,dunno why,his hand always very pain,and becos he wanna recovery faster,he keep taking up his hand and exercise,and he hope to recover faster,the pain...really hurt our heart,with no medical education,we can onli sit aside and watch,hw pain he was..and until the day at hospital,doctor say tat taking heavy things might be one of the cause tat he will become lik tis today,was it becos of tat dumb-bell?Tat day when dad was fall on the floor,looking at him struggling to get up,my mind was all blank,i couldn't stand properly and i sit at the bed,wishing he could get up,too late..tat's all too late.

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I am tired and lazy to carry on everything nw...
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