Thursday, September 11, 2008
Since dad left,i haven hav a gd slp,always waked up during the midnite..and can't get into slp anymore,2 wks since dad left us..we r still crying when we tink of him,it hard nt to tink of cos,everywhr has his shadow..even my sch,he often drive me home frm sch,and wks ago before tis incident happen,dad still drive mum,sis and me to changi airport to hav popeye as lunch,bro in ns so nv went,even i saw an aeroplane flew by,i can oso tink of u dad,cos rmb we promised u and mum to bring u all overseas when we earn many many money?Bt it's a pity u left so early,dad..why i heard ppl say their relative or whosoever dead,will let them drm,will hav butterfly,dragonfly fly into their hse to find them bt why till nw i still haven saw one?Only gt one beetle at my head and i am nt sure was it u?And a drm oso nt sure is i tink too much or is u let me drm derHx..tis morning waked at 6am,mum was crying,by looking at her i can't do anything,i cry tgt wif her,so does sis,everyone of us wasn't feeling gd,onli nv tink of u i can smile,bt when u appear in my mind,i will start to tink of..i can't talk to u anymore,can't see u anymore,can't hug u anymore,can't jk wif u anymore,can't argue wif u anymore,can't shopping wif u anymore,can't be able to go out as a family anymore,a family without a father is really very insecure,cos dad..u always protect us no matter hw tired u r..dad..tink of hw tired u r when u was back frm work,and u can still wear a smile on ur face,its really makes me heartache..dad,i am so scare nw..cos i wun be able to see u anymore,i noe mum,bro,sis oso feel tat,cos every happiest memories we had is tgt as a family,the video bro and me took "way to suki",i hav been watching it over and over,i am so regret why i didn't took it longer,the last things u said on the video is "walk larHx,take take take",and i said "nt i wan take derHx leh",and i return it to kor and stop video,if i can take longer,hw great it will be...dad,looking at ur photos then realise the change u hav,u really look pale,maybe...nw the onli console words i can say is maybe..it's better to let u go,so u wun suffer anymore,u can be freedom,no more burden,no more medicine,u can eat anything u lik nw,u hav big hse and big car nw,u hav many money nw,bt dad...pls..dun forget us,we love u...




I am tired and lazy to carry on everything nw...
7:30 PM