Sunday, February 26, 2012
我，从来没有谈过任何的恋爱。只有傻傻的单恋过十年，也曾经被爱过。或许我不知道恋爱中的那种感觉，但是我却清楚的了解爱上一人的那种痛苦。没有谈过恋爱的我，一次，又一次的从身边的朋友身上看到了谈恋爱的甜蜜，和一时的冲动到最后带给自己的伤害。他们的那些故事，让我对爱情的失望越来越深，期望越来越少，我甚至怀疑，世上是否真的有真爱的存在？又有多少人能够真正的拥有呢？如果爱情最终带来的只有伤害，我不希望自己这一生与它有任何的牵连。可是，我毕竟是人，我有七情六欲，所以，我好希望有一种能够封闭自己心的一把锁，将它给锁起来。然后，从此，我只有亲情，友情，不再有爱情。我甚至觉得，我这一生，可能根本不会遇到爱我，疼我的那个另一半。我不想要自己在对爱情在有任何的期望了。我竟然没有谈过恋爱，就没有必要去爱了。不需要什么轰轰烈烈的爱过，因为如果拥有过后，注定最后会失去，拥有，只是痛苦的开始。那，又为什么要拥有呢？我放弃了，我真的要放弃爱情，不要它再带给我任何的不愉快了。开开心心的我，为什么要因为它，把自己弄得那么不堪一击呢？我真得很害怕。我不要再为任何人等待十年，结果又是一场空了。够了。如果要说轰轰烈烈，那就用我轰轰烈烈的等待过一个人十年，所以，我对“爱情”这两个字，也算有交待了。让我下定决心吧，不要再期待爱情了。玩玩恋爱游戏还行，就是不要再放一点一滴的感情了。




I am tired and lazy to carry on everything nw...
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Thursday, February 16, 2012
I am preparing for my upcoming b'dae,this yr is 21st.I am afraid something,somewhr might went wrong.Phewww -.-,but only until the day itself,I wun noe wat or whr will went wrong.Guess wat my boss actually told me today?He asked me,if thr is a better offer,will I consider on leaving this co. and take tat offer?Used to thought I will reply yes without any second thought,but..I replied; "i dunno".Maybe has been in tis co. for quite sometimes,is abt a yr plus?The feeling is thr already.Yup,i hav went to genting with family,sis bf,esther and her mum last wk sun,frm 12-14Feb.A boring trip bt relaxing.Juz dunno why I always gt headache when I went to holiday.It's not the first time -.-.It's a lonely valentine's tis yr again.Am I pending for something?Do I really need tat?Who occupied my heart nw?Actually,I oso dunno,sometime it can be him,him or him?LOL.Sound lik I am a flirt.I hope I am nt.After the genting trip,he seems lik getting faraway frm me.Wonder wat he's tinking.He dun wan or dun dare to speak to me?He is waiting for me to talk to him or he is juz simply ignoring me?Can stop disturbing my heart if u are juz looking for "fun"?I dun wan to entertain such thing.I entertained too much,and enough.It's either u giv me the happiness or u leave me alone.Dun bother abt my existences.I believe,it's gd for both.




I am tired and lazy to carry on everything nw...
10:59 PM