Thursday, June 23, 2011
Are you nt caring us anymore?Washing ur hands off us juz lik tat?Cos you are moving back to ur old place so you dun hav to giv a damn abt us anymore?So wat's tat 3 mths mean to u?Tat 3 mths,you hav been repeating "we hav done well",so is tat juz a words?Meaningless words?To let us feel tat u care for us bt u actually dun?You are juz doing ur job and nw ur job are done and nw,to u..we are 'NOYB'?Hw long hav i nt heard you asking me "hw's ur work","are you still able to manage it","tonite do u hav any dates,etc..can you work for OT tonite"..such sentences to let me feel tat u actually care.Nw,tis wk...out of all the container,tomoro is the end of the wk,and still hav 2 haven done,yet..u did nt even care abt it,why?Is it nt impt or is it u dun care anymore?I wan u to noe,tat idiot guy hav pass his work to me already,i told u before,u ask me to tell "ur assistant",bt he juz ask me to learn frm him,so yah..i hav to learn frm him and he say next mth,tis will be my job,are u aware of tis?Really i am gonna to do tis oso?U told me dun care him,u dun wan me to take down tis responsible,bt...when he come to me,u are nt around,hw am i gg to let u noe?I even find it hard to talk to u.The attitude u show to me oso seems abit diff,is i over-sensitive?I dunno..I juz feel upset,very.The whole day at work,I am juz holding on to tat stupid smiling face,bt crying so hard inside.Juz a little action u do,can wipe a little tears off my heart.Lik a fool,why am I so relying on u. :/




I am tired and lazy to carry on everything nw...
11:02 PM


Friday, June 17, 2011
I scare,I try,I fail,I hold on,I success,things change.I scare again,I hold on again,things getting more and more complicated again,I still want to try again,but..I scare I may fail someday again.The senior's over thr advised me,dun care..dun tink whether I can do it or not first,I grab the chances,grab the opportunity first,until then everything's can be done.But if I scare tis and tat,afraid I am unable to do it,unable to make up my mind,waste my time,lost the chance,and tat's it.Chances onli passby you once,if you are lucky maybe twice,bt if you dun make up ur mind fast,it won't come back to u.Tat is wat I am worrying eh.Can I really do it?Can I make it?Can I?

Dun wan me to always work for OT till so late.Tell me abt ur story,share wif me ur story,u do tat to everyone u noe too?Being so caring,notice stranger's speak to me,worry i am unble to manage my job,worry I am hungry,worry I nv drink more water will fall sick,worry I feel warm,worry I feel tired running here and thr,etc.,is tat a boss to a subordinate care and concern or it actually mean sumthing?Below our conversation today and I feel is really interesting.

U: Do u lik to eat swt?
M: Er..yea.
U: What swt u lik?
M: LOL..er..swt that taste nice?
U: LOL...what an ans.
M: Haha.
U: Then u lik chocolate?
M: Yes.
U: What chocolate you lik?.......Don't tell me chocolate that taste nice hoh.
M: HAHAHA!!
U: You know last time I buy one chocolate for my gf's mother.The shop is at vivocity,call.......er.....
M: Candy empire uh?
U: No,nw close already,change to geography shop..call "XXX"
M: Oh.
U: Then the chocolate is 90% bitter,my gf's mother eat already immediately feel spiritual.
M: LOL...HAHAHA.
U: U want I buy for u?
M: HAHA..don't want!I got eat before :D *walk back to my desk*

Wat a conversation we had,haha..I believe thr's no boss outside a big co. as gd as u lerHx bah.Anw..u are actually being "force" to be our boss in the first place rite,nw..seems lik u are gg back to ur old position soon,and u are looking forward to it,am i rite?Wat plan do u guys really hav?Pls dun put me into a situation I will feel terrify,tat I am unable to manage it,I dun wan history to repeat.Save me!!!!!!!




I am tired and lazy to carry on everything nw...
10:54 PM


Thursday, June 02, 2011
Argh!!!!!!!!Shit!Why are you so caring,don't you know over caring can make someone misunderstand?Haix..is not your fault,is mine..I am crazy I guess.What am I tinking,I know tis shldn't happen,bt why I juz can't control,I always lose to tis matter,always lose.Can't I learn to control my feeling?Pls nt let tis be the case.Well...come back to my job.I am alrite,still alrite yet,bt dunno why...feel tat the major things coming towards me,reaching me soon,I am juz a useless person who rather lead a simple and normal life rather than a complicated and luxury life,in another word,I rather earn $1800 doing wat I noe rather than earning $2000 and I hav to learn everything,though I know tis kind of tinking is stupid,selfish and foolish,but I can't help,tis kind of tinking juz keep on appearing.I juz hope it won't be a tough life for me.I am starting to worry.For wat I am doing nw,I am used to it.Bt for wat I am learning nw,is still new to me.Tat's why,behind is wat I am most worried,who can help me at tat time,who will appear to be my guardian,lead me,till I can be independant.Who will?




I am tired and lazy to carry on everything nw...
7:46 PM