Thursday, March 31, 2011
I can't believe it,did i unintentionally kill my dad?I watch one show,it explain when a person lost its conscious,u cannot force to turn its body or pull tat person up,or else..it will cause brain dead.Fuck,why am i so stupid at tat time,why did i onli realise all these nw,why i onli tink clever bt do nth?When dad fall,i shld call ambulance in the first place,then do CPR for dad,bt why didn't i tink of tat?When dad fall,wat i do was onli keep asking dad wat happen to u,being so lost,doing nth,i even force to pull him up when i noe i shldn't,i forget abt 995,i forget abt shouting his full name,i forget abt CPR,i forget and it was so impt bt i forget,i am nw feeling so guilty,it was all too late,it's too late.I am so sorry,dad..i am sorry.




I am tired and lazy to carry on everything nw...
6:56 PM


Monday, March 21, 2011
The first time i saw u,i nv tink tat i would get to noe u,or even become friend wif u,if nt for her..i wouldn't hav get to noe u,i swear.After i hav noe u,we chit chat,we laugh,we smile,we play,we jk.Falling for u hav nv crossed my mind at the point of time,nt becos u are nt gd,bt i nv dare to,and so..i stay a distance away,nv dare to let myself cross the line,bt why...why do u treat me so well at tat time,let me thought tat u can be the one,let me interested in u,and then nw..u leave me.U are lik the second him,the one i waited for yrs,did u appear to hurt me harder?U came to help me to keep my thing,u keep calling my name,play with my name,u giv me a choco,u let me hav ur seat,u came to chat wif me while i am lonely,u saw i am frustrated,u came to ask me wat happened,u notice bored and u get a bottle of drink for me,and u send me a msg on fb instead of sending her,u on webcam and show me ur face instead of showing her.Lik..why,u treat me so specially to make me mistaken tat u feel for me,bt...tat wasn't true.Or is it i am too sensitive tat's why i feel so?Yah right,i guess shld be i too sensitive,cos i shld noe the feeling of interested in a person,u wun be so cold,u will treasure the moment u can chat wif the person,u will open webcam for the person even if u dun open for anyone,u will wan to go out wif tat person even if u hav to meet ur friends.Tat's the way if u interested in tat person.Can i lik,stop being troubled by the same prob again?It's kind of childish,i am no longer a teenagers,talking abt crush,talking abt lov,nw..shld talk abt money,shld talk abt future.LOL.Well..i am juz bored,yea..i am.




I am tired and lazy to carry on everything nw...
10:21 PM


Friday, March 11, 2011
Juz becos i am anything,doesn't mean u can ask me to do everything.Wth...u let them free of troublesome,bt..did u tink of hw troublesome i will be?Alittlebit,and alittlebit,add and add it's already nt alittlebit.I am busy enough.If,thr's onli FCL for me to do,then...alrite,i might be fine wif it,bt...did u consider while i doing FCL,thr are alot of LCL i hav to do oso,and tis uncle is always giving me prob,pushing all his "unknown" to me,unlik the uncle tat has been sack,he IS much more better,he wun push all the "unknown" to me,and still..he will help me to lessen my prob.Why did the co. sack him,it's the co. loss.I am introducing my friend to the co.,if..she is nt being selected,then well...maybe i wun stay in the co. for long period,anytime i feel i am enough of it,i will consider to quit.I am tired of it.I admit,u are a nice boss,compare to other's boss out thr,bt...u onli consider for those uncles..it's nt u didn't consider for me,bt..u keep on adding job for me to do cos of those uncles,and it's in the situation of u noe i am busy.It's either i am very very busy or very very free,why can't it be balance?Why can't the situation change?And i fcuking tulan to hear ppl thr saying "I see u so free ma,lik nth to do",shut up when u dunno anything,u tink onli u are busy?Fcuk,or are u blind to see i am actually busy?Do i need to let u noe wat i am fcuking busying abt?Dun tink u are cute when u say tat,dun tink i will entertain u when u say tat,one or two times i am fine wif it,bt hw many times do u wan to say?And dun complain and complain abt the part are nt at rite location or wat,i am nt the one doing,pls fcuking go and tell the person who is doing tat,hw many times do i hav to repeat,IT'S NT MY BUSINESS! :/




I am tired and lazy to carry on everything nw...
6:53 PM


Tuesday, March 01, 2011
I start to miss my baobei xixi =(.Being so abnormal today juz becos i really miss tis little cutie.Bt...she no longer take care by mum,tat's fact.I tink of sumthing today,and i feel kinda sad after having tis thought.My previous boss has retired,ytd was his last day..."retire",tis word..remind me of my dad,at my tis age,i am envious of my boss tat after his all tis yrs of hardworking,he can finally retired and stay at home to let his child take care of him and he can enjoy "tian lun zhi le",bt...for my dad,he oso been hardworking for so long,he even younger than my boss,bt why he dun hav such a gd fortune,why he pass away so early and he can't even be by our side when we really need him.I hav watch the movie "da shi jie" wif my uncle family and my family,after watching the show,i am very curious abt tis place(da shi jie),bt..my mum can't tell me much abt tis place,cos..she live in malaysia,so she dunno very well abt tis place too.Then,she said...if dad was around,he will tell u all more abt tis place,he even win a trophy for singing competition in "da shi jie",thr comes the "sour" feeling.LOL...tink so much oso no use.It's all destined.




I am tired and lazy to carry on everything nw...
9:33 PM